so the plans are to go back to school.  for some photo classes.  not necessarily a degree but just to get back to doing something i enjoy ( Read more... )

it was a bad dream...
and even worse when i realized i wasn't waking up.

work was awful.  at one point i literally had 17 different people asking me for something.  the most irritating thing are people shouting my name when i'm talking to another table.  YOU ARE NOT MY ONLY FUCKING TABLE AND IT IS OBVIOUSLY NOT YOUR TURN.

you wonder sometimes if the ( Read more... )

my gosh Audra Kubat has such a lovely voice.
i've always wanted to be lovely.
you know, the type of person you look at and think "my they are lovely"
i'm sure someone thinks that of me.
i'm sure i've stabbed them in the heart once or twice
or twice and again and never realized how lovely i was to them.
lovely
how lovely
what a lovely word lovely is

off to ( Read more... )

i can't seem to distinguish happiness from sadness from just wanting to run my way.

i'm frontin' like i'm powerful.
but there's still a lot of pain.
just ignore it
like everything else

k...this will be as scattered as my dreams just were ( Read more... )

all i want out of life is to share my insanity with someone else.
and photograph it, of course.

bottled up for over 10 years.
finally relief.
that was good.
that felt good.
hate feels good when u confront it.

going back to school sounds amazing. mmm....the taste of photography ( Read more... )

"what is love, where did it get me? whoever thought of love is no friend of mine." -Dar Williams

that's how i feel right now

i can't stand how much difficulty i have with relationships.  i whole heartedly wanted this to work.  you've no clue.

Ode To This Time Around
i did the math
the calculations 
i put the past
present 
future together
and got us
and yet ( Read more... )

i feel bad ( Read more... )