i have recently been diagnosed with boredom.

here are some of the symptoms:

-living with my parents at age 23
-living in the same state i grew up
-being in a longterm relationship
-restraining myself from creativity
-working at the same job for the past 5 years

I've found a cure though.
I've found a cure....

is it the lack of confidence within me?
or is she selfish in a way only i seem to see
perhaps i could blame it on jealousy
this pain i endure is not free
it's costing me
it's costing me
it's costing me

i cannot continue to self destruct myself....belittle myself...

i'm your chris farley.

There is no need to accommodate anyone at the expense of your career or deadlines, so be prepared to say no more often than you may like. Those old connections will most likely remind you of how far you have come and reinforce your commitment to your personal career goals.

so this was the very last part of my "yearly horoscope".  And yes, ( Read more... )

it's strange looking at past journals.

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so much potential you have my dear
so why the fear  why the fear
i will be your slave
even dig your grave
if you cut me a check
a check 
a check
a check one two three
a check one
is this thing on
John.  John.  John.
to a creative man
raise your hand
raise your glass
flex your ass
to a creative man
i'll drink to that
i'll drink to that
what i'd give to be a creative ( Read more... )

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i've always been the type that goes out too hard in the beginning.

i'm tired. i feel worthless.  what makes one feel full of worth?

sunday night dream:

i went to lunch with my cousin and her new boyfriend.  she was dating Jared.  that's fucked up.

monday night dream:

one of my first work dreams.  i was mentoring.  jim was closing.  (like last nite)  except there were about 15 employees still there and the place was trashed when jim wanted to leave.  and we left even though the ( Read more... )

wow.  quite the "learning experience" i have had this week.  i was fairly excited for this week.... wednesday especially... perhaps i hyped it up too much.  i was anxious to see people that i hadn't seen in months.... some even years.  but my day started out with a bit of disappointment and it seemed to domino effect into the evening.  i would have ( Read more... )