its funny how fast things change...people change...feelings change...towards everyone...and you have no control

...i want them to change

yeaa ok.. this goes out to all the guys....if ur touching me and i say stop..i mean STOP...im sick of people poking me, touching me, tickling me, wrapping their arms around my waist or shoulders...so if youve done this to me in the past week..DONT, unless you know im ok with it

i think im afraid to let go...i don't think i could if i tried...im too scared to get close to anyone now...ive had four chances with four different people and i ran from everyone with lame excuses...i put myself in the postion to get close to someone and then stiffen up or get too nervous and leave...

why can't I stay there? or be my old friendly

ever feel like you want to bury youself alive and just end it so you could never make a stupid mistake after stupid mistake again?

tonight was way fun!! amanda and i made cute lil shirts and then we went to carlys. so many people were there and i guess there was crazy drama going around but me and amanda were too happy and hyper to notice. i ended up playing truth or dare with jesse kikki and matt while everyone else was talking. yea mucho fun. then amanda jim and will joined ( Read more... )

i was just watching Brink on the disney channel and ive come to realize somthing...i love guys with long hair...i mean you've gotta have great short hair if im going to like it(like josh hartnett, just a beautiful man with or without hair)...i mean the guys ive liked are eric von detten, brad pitt( with long hair in Troy), Heigh Ledger, Trent Ford ( Read more... )

i have no more braces...         : )

umm a shit load has happened...both good and bad..crazyness on jims bday with jim carly kiki chris mike tim...not so good football game...carly and i saw garden state...great movie...ran around with alex...got my lisence ahaha ok whos scared?!?!

i think i desided im going to be a gypsie...yea because then i would go anywhere i wanted to go make friends, meet guys and then leave before i really get to know any of their real selves and i could leave before getting emotionally attached to any of them...i could just pick up and go knowing there will be new people and new guys in other places ( Read more... )

tonight was crazy...got in cars like we always do when were boredended up at kohl's..uncomfortable..went to shannons and saw a lot of drunk guys dropping beers on the drivway while making there way to the garage...left...hit a parked car ( Read more... )