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Can't Stand It Any More
A refugee to memories of days gone past, he sat in the midday sun, staring out the diner window. Slouched behind a linoleum covered table with worn chrome lining around the sides, he stared at a brown haired girl whose eyes tunneled right back into him.
"You really are an asshole. You know that, right?" she said with a half-joking scowl.
He looked ( Read more... ) -
Omerta
Clouds crawled overhead like weary souls dragging their bodies to work. My cigarette burns softly into my lungs and deposits sweet nicotine down into my innards in exchange for some violent wretching every so often. I stand across the street from my old house. Hulking and forlorn it stares at me, crying out for love and care where there is none. I ( Read more... ) -
A Circle of Dependency
Within 30 meters there are approximately five people. Three don't care whether you live or die. Two love and care for you in their own, twisted way. The last person reviles your existence. The last person contemptibly reminds you of your worthlessness and utter irrelevancy on a daily basis. Despite this, she is content to use your insider ( Read more... ) -
Protect me from yourself
The only thing we can grasp as absolute truth is the present. The Gestalt: this eternal instant. We distort the shapeless future; we exaggerate and rationalize the past. We ravage the rotting carcass of our histories until they are bald and toothless fictions, as harmless as possible. We say things that come out fractured and end up meaning ( Read more... ) -
Embrace Me/Back Away
There's a bright star hidden from sight - an existential darkness blankets a crowd with hate-kissed faces. Haunted by scorn, the flames from their torches whisper destruction into the air. I cry out to the mob to be calm, but no one is laughing. Nobody's laughing here. They'd rather scratch their ears until they bled and their weary knuckles fell ( Read more... ) -
No Wrongs and No Revenge
Inspired by a painful conversation, a couple of toughs, coffee and a deck of cigarettes
His long blue coat flapping in the breeze, Tony was an unassuming rich kid that should've had a smile on his face. Standing atop the paved stones outside his ex-girlfriend's house his long expression drabbled with the result of three-days without shaving on his ( Read more... ) -
All False
I thought I had it all
I thought I knew it all
I thought I had it made
Shows how wrong you are
Everything's just out of reach
faces surround me, feels like fire
there's my blood again
pooling in streams behind me
I'm screaming out
but no one listens
they care as much as I
do for them
I falter, stumble
can't get out of mind quick enough
but I still live where I ( Read more... ) -
The Discovery of the Self Project
The Discovery of the Self Project
Phase I: Surrounded By Ignorance
Phase II: Transition Phase Alpha (Enlightenment by Darkness)
Phase III: Descending Despair's Chasm
Phase IV: Transition Phase Beta (Climbing the Slippery Walls of Detatchment)
Phase V: Lost To Apathy
Phase VI: Transition Phase Gamma (Preparation for the Cortex Reboot)
Phase VII: Seeking ( Read more... ) -
It's Christmas Time Again
Thanks for nothing
uncomfortable
twisting and turning
sinking into the corner of the room
you're crying
just for the hell of it
salt upon tongue tips
feels like blood rushing through veins
disconnected
looking through the window outside in
disembodied
your legs are searching for my eyes
to caress with gossamer touch
roll the dice and choose your vice
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I'm Looking Out For You
The General was draped over his mahogany desk (imported from Switzerland) in the fugue of a headache. His top psychological warfare expert was melting in front of him, a mix of panic and heat clutching his throat. He'd occasionally check it for hands every few moments as the General gazed over him dissapointedly. "Don't just stand there like you're ( Read more... )