Every time I come on here, theres a new format. Eventually I will post something positive. I just feel so...drained. I feel so, weak. God, what happened to me? Last year my new years resolution was to be a better person. And I became a total pussy. A girl at work told me I don't stand up for myself enough. I need to be more confident at my job. I ( Read more... )

I guess they're not really promises, but goals. Lets see, all I have to do is look around my apartment. O.K. I was going to stop drinking. Ha. well I guess one drink a day isn't so bad. I was going to work out. 5 minutes of crunches won't solve anything. I have an empty canvas that should be painted with orange and crimson orchids for the bedroom. ( Read more... )

I have met many crazy people in my former New England life (which would be this old picture taken about two years ago) and my contemporary life here in the Sunshine state. Yesterday my mom hands the phone over to our very street saavy, former restaurant owner/investor neighbor. She's a little inebriated, slurring her speech and repeating herself. ( Read more... )

I can't believe it! Its been almost a year since I've posted. I forgot my password and by chance tonight I was guessing passwords and i got it! hahah. I'll probably forget again and I'm sure everyone's taken me off their buddylist. Ironically enough my last post was informing the public that I'd be coming home. Which is the case this time as well! ( Read more... )

Attention everybody ( Read more... )

For anyone who still reads this ( Read more... )

Isn't it amazing to think that not to long ago, there were people we didn't talk to in high school. and before you know it we've all moved on and onward, sprawling out in every direction from a small class of seniors, who soon become adults and dot every corner of the globe? and some of these people will bump into your mom, people who may not have ( Read more... )

I'm sitting scantly clad, clashing striped panties from Victorias Secret splashed with orange and blue and a Delias polo shirt. Its horizontal lines are Easter pastel shades of baby blue and buttercup. The fan whips air at a medium pace. Life is comfortable. Enough to put a smile on my face with the right tune, as if driving off into the credits of ( Read more... )

and as the music sotfly coaxes me mind into thinking about the motion picture that is my life, it occurs to me just how many friends I've lost moving down to Florida. I think of Vaneessa, randomly, and wonder h ow she is. Its been since December since I called her last, ans she doesn't call me...and so out of high school friendships either ( Read more... )

SoMetimes i just don't know how or why i can be two completely different people at home and then at work. Its more than just the chef coat and the m.c. hammer pants. I can do everything on the to-do-list (if its a slow night)at the job: peel cucumbers, slice radishes, thaw and cook the shrimp blah blah and with the neat flick of a pen, its ( Read more... )