It's funny how we change at the drop of a hat. How one day we wake up, and nothing is the same. I don't understand that. But here comes the hard part... Everyone else is changing around you, you see them morphing right before your eyes. Do you follow their lead and change, too? Or do you hold your ground, keep your values, get left behind? ( Read more... )

It's one of those nights and I feel like crying. I hope they can't see my pain. They never see my pain. And for the first time, it's a good thing...right?

Somebody's got to care. But this is reality. Reality is an vain, egotistical, slut.

I just want someone to care. I care. I care so much. Everyone knows I care. I try so hard. Why do I try so hard? No one else trys so hard. But I try so hard. I wish so hard. Everyone wishes so hard. But nobody does anything. I dont do anything. You dont do anything. He doesnt do anything. She doesnt do anything. We are all sitting back, wishing ( Read more... )

                ...Let the distace begin... keeping in touch is a lot harder than it may seem. but i appreciate the lack of effort. but i've tried just as much. so i'm prety much crap. everything's pretty much crap. thanks crap.

Not looking forward to this year. gonna suck ass. i'm stoked. yeh.

I wanna go ride my bike. but i dont wanna ride ( Read more... )

I hate it as much as everyone else... summer basicly over.

So I have actually done a lot in the past week or so. I'm surprised. Last night I spent the night at Tessa's house with Hannah R and it was pretty sweet. hah.
-Waiting for Chris for EVER! and him never showing up. yeah sucked.
-Jumping on the trampolien with bras
-Hannah's seat bounce things
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Fuck infatuations. I quit. ugh. I expected this. I knew it was coming, but somehow, let it happen. I don't know. Ugh. If I'm right about this then to hell with you. I hate myself because of you.

I really want this, but I don't want to get hurt again. I know you have to take risks in order to see what is gonna happen, but, I'm scared. I don't know. Mleh. Usually I have some sort of idea about everything. I usually have a plan for everything in the VERY back of my mind. But with this, with this I am so lost. I can't even imagine what might ( Read more... )

Why do they even let my friends out of the house? I'm not kidding. Every one of you needs to be in a mental institution. Maybe not Claire, she is pretty human seeming. Last night, I spent the night at Hannah O's, and right when I got there, the retarded-ness started. We were downstairs, listening to a celtic rhythms cd from Ireland, and I asked Em ( Read more... )

You all mean so much to me. I can't even put into words how amazing you are. Every one of you have been with me through everything, and I truely appreciate that. I miss you all dearly, and can't wait to see you, Hannah, tonight for the game. I hope it totally rocks. Everyone else we need to get together because I don't think i can live much longer ( Read more... )

Yeah, you are beautiful, but you don't mean a thing to me. No you don't mean a thing to me.

I think a storm is comming. I just saw lightning and heard a super loud thunder. I am really in the mood to write, but I don't have anything but gossip on him on my mind. I can only write when it rains so hopefully it will rain loudly.

I am really ( Read more... )