so i slipped up last night...what the hell is wrong with me?  i don't think this ever ends.

buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.
laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect posture but you're barely scraping by,
but you're barely scraping by.

this is one time
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i repeat...i hate myself enough as it is. you don't have to try so hard to convince me that i should.

i'm so confused right now about...everything. i'm just lost in life. and i'm scared. i keep getting into these ruts where i think about everything.

i miss sandy.  i know most people would just think that i'm crazy--they'd say "he was a cat."  and ( Read more... )

i got the job!!  i am an actual photographer! i'm so excited. i'm going to be getting paid to do something i enjoy.

family: "so what are you doing with your life danielle?"

me:  "well, the non-profit organization we co-founded last year is starting to get off the ground.  i'm still pursuing my degrees in both psychology and photography, but while i'm ( Read more... )

i hate myself enough already.  you don't have to constantly remind me why i should.

i have an interview at picture people tomorrow.  i'm so nervous. sure, it's not much...just a cutsy little portrait studio...but this could actually turn into something for me. it could help launch that part of my career. it would be so funny if the next time somebody asked me what i do i could look at them and actually say "i'm a photographer." ( Read more... )

i can 't sleep.  it's almost 3:30...i have to leave for class by 8:30. i'm tired. i can't sleep. this blows.

i know i haven't really updated this thing in ages...not that it really matters because i'm quite sure nobody reads it except for the occasional poor, unfortunate soul that stumbles upon it...but i thought if i started writing in here again it might make me feel a little better...so here it goes. i just wanted to post this short essay that i wrote ( Read more... )

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i've been so completely and utterly consumed with planning for sexual assault awareness month and with rock against rape that i actually almost forgot about self-injury awareness month.


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