my goodness it was a long drive.. especially if you haven't had any sleep in a couple..... and i had to drive alot. Didn't go through with the plan....I should have been happy today that i was done.. accomplishments and stuff.. wasn't nessicarily happy...but i didn't nessisarily feel suicidal either.. was a good day.. very busy.....which made me ( Read more... )

DAMN ITS FREAKING COLD!!!!!!.. i have been sitting here all night freezing my little footies off... my nose is drippy a little bit becuase its so freaking cold...and i wanted to take ashower but i don't want to be even colder...(the water doesn't get very hot if your the first one in--how ironic).... but i mean i am sitting here wishing i were ( Read more... )

this is starting to get extremely annoying since my lack of concentration is going to have a huge impact on my two hour final in which i need every second for time of thought about these stupid problems....grrrr..... i have tried several times to go to sleep now and since it takes like two hours to even get to a point of near falling asleep i just ( Read more... )

katie... and mallory wanted a way to help me well its hard for me to express my feelings oraly.. so its much better if you im me or just respong to my ljs.... and seriously you guys worry way to much.. no big deal... honestly... i am not going to hurt myself / kill myself anytime soon ( Read more... )

i can't concentrate and my exam is in 12 hours what am i going to do???? ahhhhhhhhhhh and why am i stupidly hungry.. you know how much saturtated fat i had today it is really gross..... i don't know about my small slice of pizza or my shrimp poppers i had for lunch and dinner.. i also had a frappachino... a cookie.. a small bag of doritos and a ( Read more... )

MY plan is to force my dad to listen to me.... i know my mom won't listen to me and a prime opportunity for my dad to listen to me (and he is more sentimental/ understanding) without my mom interfereing or ginving second thoughts that i am ok... he is coming to pick me up tomarrow and after my final and the car is packed... i am going to be very ( Read more... )

so now i am again crappy.. i am anxious for my exam.. can't really concentrate.. i am tired ... and i have a small headache... the food was NASTY..... great... i want to go to sleep but i can't becuase i am going crazy.. sort of wound tight like an explosive spring... but i am extremely tired..even though i got enough sleep yesterday...I hate life ( Read more... )

i usually feel best when in the morning and this morning was particularly pretty good.... i didn'at have to eat bymyself... well i technically did but i talked to someone while i ate... there was this nice guy whome was a nerd and not a partier like myself.. quite ect.... and we had a nice chat while i had some pizza....to bad he doesn't live in ( Read more... )

the way i express myself is through the written word and through drawing...unfortuntaly for the latter of the two i feel more guilty taking part in (don't ask questions) and i don't really care that much about it anymore... although i am missing it... this is confusing.... i don't want to do it but i miss it???? oh well i am full of contradicting ( Read more... )

i can't stand this being here.. it is sooo incredibly annoying!!!!!....i am so obssesed with myself how rude is that.... really i am soo incredibly rude!... i don't know what i am going to do with myself... i want it to go away ... just blow away so i can concentrate!!!!!! this is killing my good grades damit... I don't want a c.. i have to take ( Read more... )