i have been wanting to cry for awhile-basically the whole week but for some reason -either i felt bad about doing it or just couldn't i don't know.. but finally i allowed myself to cry and it BURNED!.. i wish my feelings would melt out all the time so that they wouldn't get built up like constipation.... i hate getting crying constapation... its ( Read more... )

Can a Person Have Suicidal Thoughts
Without Being Depressed ?

Answer: Yes !

so what does this mean.. .....

so am i depressed??? i am confused so.....

my fishy just died... i think it might have been due to the school water...(although i did dicholorinate it or whatever)... or he might have just finally just gave out... he was the one that tried to commit suicide earlier and i had more of a connection with becuause he was way more freaked out... i wish i could will mysefl to die...becuase i think ( Read more... )

ok this is why i am confused... Its not every second of everyday/ or even everyminute that i feel sad or upset or lonely or all those depressed feelings that you get... but that it happens several times a day.. but not all the time i mean i am not crying constantly or constantly feeling so rotten and low.. most of the time i just do.. i just do ( Read more... )

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i got an email today saying again i recived yet another scholarship... woopdie doo.. it was for being in the food science program.. they want to keep me.. but now i am more confused and my dad is going to lay on a guilt trip the size of montana... i hate being smart...... i think i am just maybe a pesimistic person... becuase i still can get escape ( Read more... )

there is an extremely annoying alarm that keeps going off whenever someone goes out the door.. and welll i can't concentrate very well gong off ever five seconds... ahhh.. and it woke me up...and they won't do a god damn thing!--oh yeah i discovered the secret to getting the higher price when you return your books at the end of semester ----be the ( Read more... )

ok i am confusing myself.. becuase its not "normal" to have constant thoughts about suicide and death... And how do i know if i am fine? i know it is bad to have these thoughts... so i mean why can't i make them stop...am i just trying to get attention???? i am so confused.....i mean i don't really have anyfeelings at all... so that's not ( Read more... )

well i had a nice chat with lin but i feel kinda low becuase i don't think i have depression. I mean since so many people think about suicide and are kinda low maybe i am just another stupid person who just can't seem to care and be happy... that may sound waky but i think I am just me and i don't know how to change me. I mean i am well enough ( Read more... )

i know the title doesn't really seem right in the head.... but i did get two goldfish becuase the owner was in my sculptor class and was going to kill the fishies for art.. which i can understand....but i wanted them so she let peeps take em if they wanted them so they would be dead for sure by tomarrow....so at least with me they got a shot at ( Read more... )