Oh hun I totally know how you feel. I was in that exact same position last week, as you know. You are so lucky that your dad is there for you. Seems to me you do appreciate it...
At least you are strong enough to tell someone about it and admit that you need help. I'm always just hiding it from everyone and wishing that I had the guts to let people know what I'm going through.
I'm always there for you too, even if I can't be there in real life. But it's too bad that we don't life closer, we could hang out and be friends. I think we would get along good.
I haven't told my dad that i have cut myself yet, and i don't actually know if i will have the guts to tell him and my step-mom. I also don't feel like talking to them and explaining exactly what's going on and why am i like this. I have also realized that admitting that you need help and reaching out for it - is, indeed, a bold step, but to my great disappointment i've realized that that in itself isn't going to do much. Yes, it will get you support, but it won't make your problems to go away. I guess i used to think that if i did that - admitted that i needed help, realized and figured out why i binge or why i cut - that these behaviours will just subside. So now i'm like - well, i know all the reasons, and i realize what's going on, and i can put my finger on it, but i can't make it go away. It's still happening. And that's kind of scary. Thank you for your support, i wish we were friends in real life too...
Yeah, I know what you mean. I think I know most of the reasons why I cut and what my ED stems from...but knowing these things doesn't make it any easier to avoid doing them. That scares me too.
Talking to your parents about stuff like this is hard - I know I avoid it because I don't want them to worry about me - but at times I really wish I could talk to them about everything and tell them everything because I think it would be a big release/relief. Keeping secrets always makes me anxious and just adds to the stress that makes me do self-destructive things.
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At least you are strong enough to tell someone about it and admit that you need help. I'm always just hiding it from everyone and wishing that I had the guts to let people know what I'm going through.
I'm always there for you too, even if I can't be there in real life.
But it's too bad that we don't life closer, we could hang out and be friends. I think we would get along good.
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I have also realized that admitting that you need help and reaching out for it - is, indeed, a bold step, but to my great disappointment i've realized that that in itself isn't going to do much. Yes, it will get you support, but it won't make your problems to go away. I guess i used to think that if i did that - admitted that i needed help, realized and figured out why i binge or why i cut - that these behaviours will just subside. So now i'm like - well, i know all the reasons, and i realize what's going on, and i can put my finger on it, but i can't make it go away. It's still happening. And that's kind of scary.
Thank you for your support, i wish we were friends in real life too...
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Talking to your parents about stuff like this is hard - I know I avoid it because I don't want them to worry about me - but at times I really wish I could talk to them about everything and tell them everything because I think it would be a big release/relief. Keeping secrets always makes me anxious and just adds to the stress that makes me do self-destructive things.
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