so i was going to go outside to help my dad spread much but on the way out i saw the card that my moms friends from work gave to her as a goodbye present. when i read it, i remembered i wasnt the only going through this...heres what it says...

May the road rise up
   to meet you,
May the wind be always
          at your back,
May the sun shine warm
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I

HATE

BEING

AWAY

i want to FUCKING go home!!

now!

why cant i why cant i why cant i want to go home why cant i go home now i dont want to be gone i dont want to be away from you

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yooooooooooooo i bet you know what this entry will be about. im not gonna be a freak and scream and obsess over everything that happened. cause there was too much of it. yeah i met frank iero too just like thousands of other fuckers who are stubbornly convinced that they are mcrs biggest fans. well fuck them. that shit pisses me off. but yeah i got ( Read more... )

ok so it hasnt happened yet, but it will be.

tonight after everyones out of work, meghan, nicole and kirsten are driving up here to get me. then we're going back and either today or tomorrow dying our hair crazy. actually i think only kirsten and me are doing our hair but thats ok. no idea what color im doing its a surprise and itll be maddd crazy ( Read more... )

well hello there darlings. decided to update again. woopee. hmm since i last updated...well after that i didnt excersize at all for like 4 days..partially because you guys, mostly because i just..i dunno wasnt feeling up to it, kind of lonely feeling all that whole..motivation that awesome feeling i had last time was just kind of...gone. but a day ( Read more... )

well so its back to monday morning and im just plainly half asleep sitting here, supposedly taking care of the siblings again. reminiscing on just a few days ago. sigh, im a loser. well anyway, friday went with the family [when is it ever NOT with the family anymore?] out to eat and then to see charlie and the chocolate factory. oh the greatness. i ( Read more... )

well i havent updated in a while, but somethings gone on just about everyday since i last updated--

Saturday- after the nasty family left my parents made a ghetto fire pit in the back with brick type things from this walkway we have[had] in the back. they took this log thing from our indoor fireplace [yes, we have an indoor fireplace, but outdoor ( Read more... )

So last night I watched Romeo + Juliet. Cute. Rediscovered the beauty of Leo, oy he's gorgeous. After that I went upstairs to my room and my mom said she was going to bed. So i lit up some candles [ I do this every so often so my room smells like fire, yum] and turned off the lights. i heart candles. so i got all up n close to one of them and ( Read more... )

well i just spent a few days in Springfield at Meghans, and i miss it already. i wont talk about everything but ill say a few. well i went to mormon church, that was cool. Micah was around a lot, that was...interesting. he sat on my head on numerous times and that bothered me..and he didnt let me and Meghan go on the roof. on sunday i saw Kirsten, ( Read more... )

hey i havent posted in a while have i..wellll lets see today is friday, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is out today :( i wanna see it, but i cant. well yesterday i went to holyoke and spent the day at my grandmothers..which was nice cause thats where i grew up and yeah it was nice. today was my moms company picnic in greenfield. at a river. fun ( Read more... )