i want to eat so bad. i'm not even hungry...i just want to eat. this is so horrible. i'm just staying in my room and reading your entries though. my mouth is actually watering. it's so disgustin. please help me through this.

i am going to start a liquid fast until friday. i will post my progress everyday. only broth, water, and coffee. anyone want to join?

starting weight-134

my mom is encouraging the use of laxatives because prom is coming up.......

that's messed up.

I NEED A SUPPOSRT SYSTEM!!! I BINGE SOOOO MUCH. PLEASE SOMEONE ADD ME ON MSN. C__LAMP@HOTMAIL.COM!!!!

i just ate a chocolate chip muffin and four small pieces of chocolate. i was sitting at my desk at work. i feel like complete shit now. this is why i am fat. i feel bloated and over stuffed. i hate myself so much right now. why do i do this everyday. i can't go one fucking day without eating like a fat ass cow. i hate myself. i can't keep ( Read more... )

Last night i ate sooooo much, i was doing so good. i got home from work and ate my meal-salmon and an apple. then i went to go look at an apartment with my boyfriend. well we got back and he was hungry so i made him a pb&j. i decided it wouldn't hurt if i ate one sandwich so i did. so then i just ate a banana too. i felt so full and so ( Read more... )

yesterday's rediculousness only got worse. i went home from work and had a big bowl of ice cream. then me and my boyfriend went to a mexican place and i had steak fajitas and beans and rice.....and ate the WHOLE THING! i was so dissappointed in myself. today i am doing great though, i've had a piece of wheat bread-90 cals and some carrots-80 ( Read more... )

i hate myself. right after i got home from work last night i ate a chocolate pop tart, a bunch of pringles, a cookie. Then i went over to my boyfriends house and had a bagel with LOTS of cream cheese. i just couldn't help myself. starting tomorrow i have to get serious. i know i keep saying tomorrow, tomorrow but i really mean it this time. i ( Read more... )

god, all i can think about is food. it just consumes me. and once i start thinking about food i start convincing myself that just a little more food won't hurt. but a little more always leads to a lot more. luckily i'm at work right now. i brought half of my carrots and raisins with me but that didn't even halfway cut it. and i ate them all ( Read more... )

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