Simply pathetic, nothing more. You ever wonder how people could be so goddamn two-faced? I can't STAND people who think they know everything about everyone around them. Makes me want to puke honestly. Pathetic.

Yeah, so Danny Boy had a party last night... more of a hangout really, but it was fuuuuuuuuun. I got SHITFACED. That was fun.... at least until I started to sober up, then it wasn't so great. I don't like the sober up part... ick. But it was fun. I met some cool new people too. Including a guy who's pursuing acting, like I am. I believe I'll ( Read more... )

So today was fine.... for the most part. Yeeaah.... suddenly I'm becoming completely depressed at night. Like, I get completely flooded with bad thoughts and emotions for no apparent reason whatsoever. I've also been very testy and easily pissed off at night. Luckily though, Vicky seems to stay on my good side whatever the case may be.... she ( Read more... )

The key to getting ME to submit ( Read more... )

Finally home once again. MY home. I'm where I belong again. Those 5 days, though they would sound like nothing to most, were sooooooooo hard for me. I missed my friends, I missed Carlos (duh). I'm glad to be home, I feel better now. Only ONE problem.... so far. Just got a little bit of news from Carlos that upset me... I know I shouldn't be ( Read more... )

So the past few days have been pretty decent, aside from Thursday night, which... wasn't the most pleasant experience of my life... lots of panic attacks, worries, chest hurting constantly, constant worst-case scenarios, lots of struggles not to cry.... that sort of thing. But that was the past, as much as it may still hurt deeply. But obviously ( Read more... )

Wow, haven't written in here in a while. Just haven't had the time, I suppose. For all those who are curious, yes I am still with Carlos, and yes, I am still head-over-heals....... and yes, it still scares me slightly. The effect a single person can have on me is soooo creepy. Surprisingly enough, he is everything I've ever searched for in a ( Read more... )

Finally... IM HOME... So happy to be back where I feel so needed, so loved, so always wanted. Only one problem. THE DRAMA IS BACK! I should make a sequel to Back to the Future, called Back to the Drama. And it'll be aaaalllll about CLE bullshit. Yepyep. Problems with Carlos, as usual, nothing new there, but now I feel like shit because I ( Read more... )

To start off with, having to go to school with a hurt leg and crutches isn’t exactly a picnic in the park. To make matters worse, I got bitched at by my english teacher for swearing in class. I was swearing because of how much my leg was hurting. I got home, had a little nice bit of rest time, then comes time for my social worker appointment. ( Read more... )

He's a bundle, thats for sure. There's a lot he seems to fail to learn. We (me and Vicky) talk to him A LOT but he doesn't seem to change. But we REALLY talked to him last night, really told him straight up everything we were feeling, no sugar coating or any of that. Yes I still love him.... maybe too much for my own good. It seems to affect ( Read more... )