Ok, last night there was a big party at our friend Hal's place. Lots of alcohol, weed, coke, that kinda stuff. Carlos got PISS-ASS drunk that night. I discovered then that he is a very angry drunk. He barks at people a lot, he treats people like shit, and it was scaring me. He bitched at my bff, Vicky, last night. See, she asked him to pour ( Read more... )

I'm seeing Phantom of the Opera tonight. Sooooo excited... but what's EXTREMELY odd... is that I feel as if this story is very relative to mine, which has never happened. Though I am not the Phantom here. I am Christine. I feel like the one trying to warm the Phantom's heart, ease his pain and suffering, and give him a life worth living. DUH, ( Read more... )

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Okay, Vicky gave me some advice yesterday. And VERY reluctantly, I took it. See, I'd been getting pretty frustrated with Carlos pretty frequently. Vicky said that it was because I was spending WAY too much time with him at once. She said we both needed to take a break. He hadn't actually gone HOME in over 3 weeks, maybe 4, I lost count. So ( Read more... )

Yeah, I really do like him...... wait, correction, I love him. I swear I've never felt this way before. He affects me in ways I cannot describe. Cannot control. I never let myself feel so strongly for someone.... and now look what's happening to me! But this is a good thing, right? A good friend of mine told me once that when you're truly in ( Read more... )

I FUCKING HATE DRAMA! Let the drama die goddamn it!!! I hate Rob, I hate some people here at CLE, and Im having very odd feelings right now. Unexplainable really... but... I just look at her and I feel odd. I don't even know if this is a good thing. I've no clue. But this is something I really need to figure out. Funny feelings, but they say love ( Read more... )

Here goes. I'm about to do something I've been thinking long and hard about for a good amount of time now. The crew has noticed my distress, and they have encouraged me to go through with this. I still haven't a clue how I'm gonna do it exactly, and I know there will be persuasions for me to keep up, and there will be arguements and questioning ( Read more... )

Just last night, I got a call from mom and dad. If I miss ANY more days of school, I'm out. Mom and dad explained to me what my life would be like without CLE........ yeah, HELL. Working either a full-time job, or two part time jobs. I'll have to give my parents 3/4 of what I make too. Thats f***ed up, but oh well. They won't get their money ( Read more... )

I WAS a nervous wreck the whole ride there, as I'd expected. Problem was, I never got over my nervousness. All weekend, every time Master was around, my chest was thumping. 24/7. How does that work??? It's slightly confusing, how I can't seem to keep myself calm and cool when He's around. I got there, and was to my surprise, immediately stripped of ( Read more... )

Well here we go. I'm going to school, then off to Orlando I go. I'm gonna beg my professor to let me out early, so I can make it to the greyhound 30 minutes before they go, since I have luggage. They told me that if I have luggage, I HAVE to be there 30 minutes before schedule. And since my class gets out at 150, and the greyhound leaves at 235 ( Read more... )