I don't think the blues is quite the right term. It seems too tame.

My default setting is blasé. The past month, the setting has been pain, sadness, anger. But these were largely due to personal issues wrapped around heartbreak. I forced myself out, spent time with friends and family, people who care about me. I felt like I was stealing their happy ( Read more... )

everyday has been a struggle. my mind is a dark place. i still drag myself out, but i'm not that approachable. my face feels frozen in somber place, but people still manage to approach me ( Read more... )

what a weird place to be in my life. recurring comments that friends have about me are that i'm awesome, attractive, smart, funny, etc., and the object of my affection is an idiot, a piece of shit, etc. for not realizing it ( Read more... )

i've been debating this for a while. i'm not in the most ideal of situations, currently. it's complicated in ways that my loved ones frown upon. it's understandable, because they want what's best for me. i totally get that, 100 ( Read more... )

i resisted for a while, but it started to affect my health. i started getting dizzy and have been fighting it for about a month now. i've hardly worked, as a result. and finally, last night, it hit me. the undeniable feelings ( Read more... )

i can use my phone as a wifi hotspot, but don't get very good reception. the internet works, albeit very slowly, during these late hours. also, my phone is dying ( Read more... )

i've been drinking lemon juice and warm water upon waking, followed by breakfast and maybe bulletproof coffee. it's been helping with depression, i guess ( Read more... )

christ, i knew that being celibate for a while when i'm biologically at my peak would be hard, on some level. my heart was like 'no, you need to do this to heal' and now my body is like 'FUCK YOU' and my brain is making me have sex dreams. goddamnit ( Read more... )

one thing i miss about being in a relationship, i suppose, is having someone to talk to about the minutiae of my complicated life. i suppose having a high-school-type best friend would do as well, but i don't have one of those. someone i see practically everyday who knows everyone i know and can relate to everything i'm talking about. i think maybe ( Read more... )

boss at primary job made several bad business choices and has cut my hours dramatically. i'm supposed to go in a few hours, but am concerned that perhaps she's just shut down the entire business during the week+ we've not been in touch ( Read more... )