I feel eternally nauseous. I can't live in this world. I can't function in a place that lacks any form of logic. Blatant hatred and persecution. I can't. I can't and I won't. I need to kill my brain. I need to kill my brain and I need to do it now.

I find now that I have never actually had a broken heart up until this point. It's like I always thought I was having orgasms until I really had one... you know? Well, anyway... the most wonderful boy I've ever known has broken my heart. I don't know if it will ever be okay again. I loved him, but I forgot that this was real. It turned into a ( Read more... )

Once upon a time I was in love with someone magnificent. Everything was beautiful. He went away after a year, promising his eternal love. It was hard, but he came to visit when he could and we talked for hours nearly every night. The distance was great, but so was our love. Two months into the separation, he told me that he wanted us to be ( Read more... )

nothing hurts like getting thrown out for the ex. i want to vomit.

I need some new fucking friends.

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Strange things have been happening to my brain when I go to sleep. Monday night I dreamt that I was living in an apartment with a girl. The three girls who lived there before us came back... I think we were subletting from them. Anyway, one of them was named Betty and she had never moved all her shit out. When the other two girls came to check ( Read more... )

1.  Your ideal theoretical candidate.   (100%) 
2.  Cobb, David - Green Party   (86%) 
3.  Nader, Ralph - Independent   (82%) 
4.  Brown, Walt - Socialist Party   (76%) 
5.  Kerry, Senator John, MA - Democrat   (73%) 
6.  Badnarik, Michael - Libertarian   (30%) 
7.  Peroutka, Michael - Constitution Party   (11%) 
8.  Bush, President George W. - ( Read more... )

Thanks to Matty for one hellish weekend turned bright. I love you! I had a Cheez-it fit. I still have two 24" by 24" models TO SCALE to build... sucky. I only have ONE SINGLE design. I had to take out the rock slabs and elevations because life is lame. One of my TAs likes words and spelling as much as I do. That kicks ass. Unintentional ( Read more... )

Before I forget, I must remember to tell all of you about a dream I had last night that involved a gallon sized ziploc bag of COCAINE. Yes, funny things will happen when you've been sick at home for four days.

I've been sick now for four days or so. When i say sick, I don't mean I'm coughing. In fact, my throat is so swollen and sore that I can't cough. I can barely stand up, I keep coughing up snot, I have a killer headache, piercing pains through my ears, unstoppable dizziness, and a fever that comes and goes, among other things. I WANT TO DIE. So ( Read more... )