Why is it that I still find myself crying in bed some nights over you?! Why do I still have times when I feel like I need to look at our pictures, and torture myself that way? Why can't I just be over you the way you got over me? I'm so sick of feeling this way...and I was hoping it might be gone by now, but it's still very alive within me! Why ( Read more... )

All my years at home, I was never that girl.  I was always the girl who no one really cared to be with or date.  Guys always seemed somewhat intimidated or uninterested...one of the two.  Now that I'm out here, I've become that girl who I never imagined I would become, and I find it odd.  I don't know how to handle it, and though it's somewhat ( Read more... )

Gosh...the last couple of days have been a whirlwind; a mix of both the good, the bad, and the emotional ( Read more... )

So, I just found out that my cousin passed away this morning back at home. I really feel so bad that I can't be there to support my family through this and to be at the funeral! He had been in a lot of pain, so it's nice to know that he's free of that, but I just don't understand why some people have to leave this world so soon ( Read more... )

I had just gotten out of my first Classical Ballet class here, and I was going to grab my purse and come home for an hour to get a bite to eat before I headed back. As I was grabbing my purse, someone said something, and I could have sworn it was Lon's voice saying, "Hey Chey Chey" the way he always did when he wanted my attention. By habit, I ( Read more... )

Knew the signs. Wasn't right. I was stupid for a while. Swept away by you, and now I feel like a fool. But I was so confused. My heart's bruised. Was I ever loved by you ( Read more... )

1. Go here.
2. Pass it on.
( my answers )

God damn...how do I get into these situations which I don't ever deserve. Several people that I trusted and loved back home have betrayed me in a way I didn't think possible. Maybe I was naive, but it doesn't make the pain any easier to deal with. I was nothing but good to these people, and what do I get in return?...a broken heart and a ( Read more... )

Hey guys! Today was our first 9 hour rehearsal and it was "hella sweet"! This group is going to take so much work, but it's going to be so much fun at the same time ( Read more... )

Hey guys...I'm sitting here watching F.R.I.E.N.D.S. (the best show ever!) with one of my roommates (Larisa), and a couple of the older YA's. Had my first music theory prep class today, which was pretty interesting and was finally something other than how much I miss everyone to concentrate on. Then at 7:00 I had a group session which was pretty ( Read more... )