you know when you realize how great it can be you wonder why it cant be like that everyday. cause it all falls into place eventually even if its only for one night. everything id ever thought and everything id ever believed was confirmed the other night. no matter what i do, it wont change. everything is hard for a reason. and the harder something ( Read more... )

you know there are certain things that change your thinking. i have a quote that makes alot of sense here. "we change for two reasons: either we learn enough that we want to change or get hurt enough that we have to" and its really that simple. it might not be finding yourself in a far off place, or being in a new town, or thinking about settling ( Read more... )

you know i was thinkin about writting. like really writting. not this bullshit, but something more. and then i realize it doesnt matter and nobody reads it anyway so why write tonight. its all the same shit. im alone, she could never love me, ive fucked up every chance for love, and there arent any more chances left ( Read more... )

so ive really learned what it means to be a friend to be a brother. its really been a long last couple of days, and it means alot to put people above me. im so glad that ive come to the point, and i think ive been there, but i know for a fact i put people above me. im more concerned about their well being and their happiness then mine. i feel good ( Read more... )

ive never realized. im simple to leave. they all just get up and leave. whether they mean to or not. they all just walk away without a thought about me ( Read more... )

so ive been home for alittle over a week. its alittle weird, alittle like normal, and allittle like i shouldnt be here. it still hasnt sunk in that im done. im a college grad. i am an ALUMNI of ELON UNIVERSITY. i mean is this real life. ive just been hanging out drinking. im headed to ocean city tomorrow. since ive been home ive hung out, drank ( Read more... )

ive come to two conculstions today ( Read more... )

this maybe my new drinking toasts ( Read more... )

so ive been home since saturday. and i just cant put my finger on it but something just doesnt seem right. i mean saturday we all just sat around my kitcken table and got drunk, sunday i didnt really do anything, monday me and kevin played beer pong all night, tuesday night went to the bar with daqn and ran up a extremely high bill, wednesday night ( Read more... )

so i believe i just had one of the best weekends ever. period im not sure anything to this point can top this weekend. It was fake break so i went home. and i had scheduled an interview with PricewaterhouseCoopers while i was home. The first night i got home kevin had off. well i was up till 8am drinking with him. beer pong all night. just bros ( Read more... )