I sit down in the car, place my foot on the clutch petal and turn the key. The engine starts right up; the RPMs come to around 1000 and balance off. I take the shift knob and giggle it make sure it’s in neutral. I turn on the radar detector and pick a song on the CD player and then I shift it into first and run the RPMs up, put down the E-brake and ( Read more... )

you know the last time i was happy when i held her in my arms?

right now i miss costa rica. i miss the time i spend with my brothers. it was such a great fucking trip nothing can compair. i went to costa rica. i pictures explain it all and i miss it. one of the best times of my life. thanks jay and kevin for one hell of a tripl, i know its way past when we went but just looking at the pictures and remembering ( Read more... )

you know i sit here and look at the ice cubes in my rocks glass and wonder why it all happens like it does. when the pain will all go away. when will it all make sense? it just never will will it? its all just a big circle of pain. if its not something one day, its the other memory. its always one IM, one phone call, one picture that brings it all ( Read more... )

back to who i am, the person i like to be, and its a damn good thing, i can only give one piece of advice ( Read more... )

fuck em, all of em. its just that damn simple. im so sick of the bullshit. people say o grow up highschool is over, and you know what grow the fuck up college isnt highschool and college is just about over. i mean what the hell is it with people now a days, nothing is ever good enough. fuck that. im so sick of everything. its not even worth my time ( Read more... )

You Are 31 Years Old
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right now i miss paul, i miss jay, i miss kevin, i miss nikki, i miss the things that make sense. this year makes no sense, my life right now makes no sense. im lost in a world that left me behind last year and all i want is for everything to fall into place. i need bel air, i need last year, i need people who understand me, i need OIB, i need ( Read more... )

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so ive finally let it hit me. now i know its over. im just something on the side thats there when she feels like it. im not important. i put all my chips in the pot and lost. it was a bet that was well worth the money but it still hurts like hell when you loose. ive held on for so long with the little shreads of hope and ive watched those shreads ( Read more... )