We have all made mistakes haven't we? Especially when we were drinking? So why then, when people obviously know that is the case do they give so much value to what you say in such a situation and then use it against you to publically bash you and discuss how they truly feel about you anyway with total strangers. In fact, yes I was intoxicated and ( Read more... )

So, I don't have much to say right now but thought I should update the ol' LJ ( Read more... )

My usual balancing act is not working very well today. I feel like I am standing on a ledge and if the wind blows or someone looks at me the wrong way I am going to fall 30 stories down. I am just so out of sorts. I need to do something fun or have a good laugh.

I absolutely hate it when my horoscope for the day is so accurate. My horoscope said that ( Read more... )

I am sitting here in my usual late night funk and the only thing that I can think of to say now is....
WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

I wish I could figure out what the hell is wrong with me tonight. I am in a funk and can't figure out why or what to do about it. I don't want to read, watch TV, sleep,clean or anything. I really want to talk to someone, but it is late and I don't even know what it is that I want to talk about anyway ( Read more... )

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Here’s what I am thinking about. The reality of the way I deal with things and the way that I have been living my life have allowed me to slip into terminal seriousness. When my emotions become intense, life stresses me or I am facing something I am unsure about I retreat into myself. My mountain is shaking from the realization that hot molten ( Read more... )

Its been a long time since I've posted-been trying to get better. But here is how the recovery dialogue goes around here ( Read more... )

My therapist and I were discussing my childhood tonight and whether or not I felt loved. Of course I was loved, what a rediculous question I immediately thought. Then as we talked some more, it came to me that I felt very un-noticed growing up. No one ever helped me with my homework, or study for a test, no one came if I had an awards ceremony or ( Read more... )