i feel very alone

can we step back and look at who we are. im not myself, but i dont understand why we need to try to be someone else. ill never be impressed nor will i ever see you the same.

This summer has to be the worst i have ever encountered. No one is around so I work crazy hours to keep myself busy. Sean's working 24/7 and is tired 99% of the time so its like we don't even date. We never used to fight, ever, now every little thing we are nagging each other about and the only time its good is when we hang out...which is never.I ( Read more... )

i have been in the mood for nothing lately. I havent been to the gym, I havent really gone out except for work. I dont know why I just have no motivation for life right now. I kinda want to go back to school just cause im bored with spfld and I want to finally have a job. The only way for a real job is to graduate school. So hurry up summer. Its ( Read more... )

My room is bare, the homeyness is all gone from it. My roommate has taken down all her picture, and cleared off her selves. I don't even feel like i belong here anymore. This weekend was such a tease, whether its ryans house for a fire and some of the best, or on seans couch all cuddled up watching a movie thinking about nothing but each other. I ( Read more... )

Me and sean went up to Rutgers this weekend kind of last minute but im so glad we went. Thursday night i went up to Umass and like always i love it there, really wish i could be there but i guess a taste of it from time to time is all im going to get. Friday we left in the after noon, and got stuck in alot of traffic, but for some reason me and ( Read more... )

i need to go somewhere new

So...break is here thankfully. I really needed a break from school being there for so long tends to make me stir crazy. I am hoping that I did well on my physiology test, I do not want to with drawl from the class, but I might have to, no F is worth my scholarship there ( Read more... )

Today was just a sad day and i am not looking forward to this week, just for it to be over. Like every other week of my life. I want it all to be over and i want to graduate and begin life, these are not the best days of my life. I still dont like it here and I pretend to but i dont. I have no where else to go.

They say that there are bumps in the road throughout life. I guess im just going over one right now. My car is causing me more trouble and money then i can afford right now, and I usually can afford things. Ive never not had a saving before. Im frusterated that no one can figure out whats wrong with me. Every doctor is like well idk try this, im ( Read more... )