You know...I have everything I could ever ask for. I am not complaining about my life but, why isn't it enough?

Why aren't you enough?!?! Is it me? Or is it you?

Why can't I figure this out?!?! It's killing me.

Is the devil.

Mixed emotions, up and down, and the sad over nothing feeling.

Gotta love it.

: )

...God is good though. He really is. I just need to keep looking up.

Seeing my people in wenatchee next week will make me happy. Miss them much.

I am SO frustrated with people in my life watching EVERY move and thinking they have a right to KNOW every detail. OR, just thinking they can comment on everything that goes on. I'm sick of it. This is my life. I am finally trying to make my life worth something here and I refuse to let people bash me. So, my new philosophy is obviously I must be ( Read more... )

Break-ups are a pretty crappy thing to go through. You think you find that "one" person you are going to be with for your life, they say all the right things to keep you with them at the beginning and then you find yourself, months later attached to the point where you can't see yourself without them. I've been doing alot of thinking and I wonder ( Read more... )

I'm not perfect. Don't hold me higher then anyone else. I make more mistakes and don't make any sense half the time ( Read more... )

So, I haven't wrote in this thing awhile...my life is still crazy. This year has probably been the worst of my life. It's one bad thing after another. First the guy I loved moved away, my grandpa died, my mom almost dies twice, and then the guy I loves breaks my heart. The only one who made me believe in love again, now turns my heart back to ( Read more... )

Last night my boyfriend came into my room after being gone 3 days. As I'm laying there half asleep, and excited to see him I hear..."I have to tell you something..." That's all I heard after that. I freaked out in my head. All I could think was, "NO, please don't break up with me." So, I sat there about to cry when I heard him say..."I have to move ( Read more... )

There is a song by Carrie Underwood. It's called "Starts With Goodbye." The lyrics are amazing ( Read more... )

I hate being alone...I hate crying...I hate the fact that you aren't here to hold me. I'm tired of messing up. Did I make the biggest mistake of my life?!?! God, what is wrong with me?!?!

So, lately I've been doing alot of thinking. Actually, I don't really, the thoughts just come into my head. Mostly guilt from my last relationship. I messed up, and hurt him more then I wanted to admit to myself I guess. For some reason, all of a sudden it's hitting me in the face. Weird how that works seeing as how we never talk or anything. I'm ( Read more... )