So, last time I was writing about not giving up and pursuing God? Well, I must say that that hasn't exactly changed. I do believe in God, and I love having a relationship with him but, it's different now. It's like I kept trying so hard to become this person I'm really not. I dunno...hard to explain. Someday I'll go into it.(maybe when I actually ( Read more... )

"Oh inconsistant me, crying out for consistancy ( Read more... )

Lance is back in Seattle. Took him forever to finally get in but, he's here and tomorrow will be home. Watching his boat dock was the sweetest, most annoying thing ever. The smile on his face was enough to make me happy. But, when he ran up to me, with a rose in his hand, and grabbed me and spinned me around I could do nothing but cry. Gosh, I've ( Read more... )

Lame ( Read more... )

I haven't wrote once again in awhile...lame, I know. So, life is really getting me down. When I broke up with Jimmie I knew it was the right thing to do. I don't regret the decision I made but, I'm lonely I guess? Sucks to admit that. I've just always for the past freakin' 3 years had someone at all times. Whether it was serious, or casual--someone ( Read more... )

I can't do it anymore. I don't even know how to function on my own without a guy being in the picture. Why did I do this to myself?! Where did it start that I became so relient on someone else? This is not me and I can't stand this. We are on a break. It's supposed to give me answers. But, it's not. I lay in bed at night just wishing he was there ( Read more... )

I can't even remember the last time I wrote in here. I never really had a need to I guess. But, now I'm back again and maybe this thing will help me release some of the stress in my life. Life is insane right now. I'm back to questioning everything in my life. Nothing makes sense anymore. I went to church this morning and it didn't help. Usually I ( Read more... )

I decided for awhile I'd make my journal public. Not anymore. You MUST be on my friends list to read now. The details of my life are here for ME and MY FRIENDS ONLY! Kay thanks, bye!! <3333

Life is grand. Except these cramps I've had for the past day! Worst I have EVER had! Good grief...it's kiiilllin me ( Read more... )

Oh me, oh my. This past week has been crrrrrrraaaazy! I now have 2 jobs. THANK YOU JESUS! It's awesome because now I think I will be more then ohkay with money. Which makes me oh so happy because I'm kinda tired of not having money to go shopping...HA! I'm terrible, I know. But, I'm me and that's how I am. LIVE WITH IT! I can't wait until my tax ( Read more... )