Zach and I are so in love again it's great but he's still pulling the no phone call deal.. I hate when I go to call him and I don't get anyone and then 4 hours later he was like yeah I was here.. well you coulnd't have called before that saying you were going that and that I would atleast know why you were ignoring my calls.. i dunno ( Read more... )

This weekend Z and I hung out! Since his rents are out of the state we decided to through some Par-ty's which I was getting my ass kissed by Mr. Brady! hahaha I was loving that! Sat and Sunday I slept over and T money took my shift on Sunday because Emily wouldn't... I never understand Emily like I have never turned down her shift and when i ( Read more... )

Monday zach finally talked to me after 2 weeks.. then on tuesday he actually stopped by and it was amazing! it felt like we were just meeting each other again! It was soo cute how it took him over 2 hours to ask for a hug and when I kissed him it felt like the first time! awwww i'm soo in love right now ( Read more... )

Today was Destiny's birthday.. It was such a nice day out and I got to see alot of friends i hadn't seen in a while which was nice.. then later on we grilled and sat next to a fire.. I got drunk which was nice.. it kept my mind off of my life ( Read more... )

SO yeah everything was going good.. minus me and zach... still have no clue as to waht is going on.. the latest is i'm hearing he's single but he wont tell me if were dating.. hmmm.. fishy? i dunno.. Me and Jeremey talked about it.. well I talked about it Jeremy just sat there for me because i needed it after today ( Read more... )

Still no word from Zach... and there is only soo many things I can do to keep my mind off of it... I think the hardest part is the fact that I do not even know if i have a boyfriend or not.. am I single? I dunno... I have a big accounting exam tomorrow and all i can think about is him... Being left hanging is so hard and i don't know how long I ( Read more... )

Today I met with a women from Bay Path today and I think i am going there.. I applied, wrote my essay, and got my unoffical transcripts.. so i'm on a roll.. i wanted to go to WNEC but i decided that the money was going to be an issues so i thought about going to Bay Path.. it is a hike from Russell but i'm thinking about maybe saying there or ( Read more... )

I'm scared to be alone

I feel soo useless right now... I don't know who I am anymore... He played such a huge role in my life and he's not there anymore... It makes all those little fights.. little pet peves seem like nothing... why did I fuck up again? why can't I ever have a good relationship!? why do i drive my boyfriends away? all I want right now I to be in his ( Read more... )

So okay.. My heart is hurting so bad my mind is wondering much.. is he smoking again? did he cheat on me? did i do something wrong? was a somewhere I wasn't suppose to do? does he like someone else? did he go to a strip club... grrr.. Why couldn't he of told me 4 nights ago ohh this is on my mind I need to think.. I can't be smoothing him because ( Read more... )