We talked last night and he told me that I have anger problems and that I "fucken piss him off" well what about the shit he pulls huh? And then he went on to tell me that I fight for the hell of it, that i thrive on it but then when i asked well don't you think i'm fighting for a reason that someone did soemthing wrong and he goes nO YOU thrive on ( Read more... )

I just don't even know where to being.. it's like i'm back in this same spot with my emotions just when I think I can handle being left behind or blown off or an inconvence but i can't... I love him so much but my hurt has taken over my love... it shouldn't be like that but it is... it's like we want a life together but he wants to still live the ( Read more... )

Does he even care that he hurts me ( Read more... )

I got my tattoo last night! OMG it hurt soo bad but it was worth it! I will have a pic up soon..

I didn't bleed and I didn't get red which is awesome

My worst fear is my own Anger....

I just cry and cry and cry... Do I do it to myself? Do i put thoughts into my head to make myself cry all the time, to be depressed? I try to make my friends and zach happy and what is the result me sitting at home... I can't win... I either smother him or he takes off.. and when i smoother him he takes off. so when do i win there ( Read more... )

Last night was Devin's 21st birthday and we were partying at Crappy Joe's.... It was a strange night.. a few people came that I didn't think would.. well actually one person came that I didn't think would be invited.. Jenny.. She hurt him soo much but I guess they have been hanging out... I hope he doesn't get hurt again ( Read more... )

So know how I wrote that he was just going to the math thing at school.. well come to find out the went to the bars to with out telling me... What the hell have i been bitching about! I took him back thinking he changed and he wasn't gonna give me this bullshit.. nope the bullshit continues.. and i love it how he is ignorning my cell phone calls ( Read more... )

Boston Billards was soo much FUN!!! It was T Money, House Blizz, Kristin (T Money's Roomate), and Ann ( Read more... )

I dunno we talked a little bit.. I've lost feelings for him but I still want ot be with him althought he's pulled really really stupid things... I told him if he pulled it again I will hurt him worse and we will be over.. I'm not putting up with stupid crap ( Read more... )