Happy 4:20 Kids!! Did you all have fun??

Well I didn't do el'druggies because I promise me lovely lady that me don't do da naughty substance! And I kept it. No smokie babah!! Lol, oh my fucking god! I got my pictures back, and there are a few in here that make me want to scream!!! Ugh! Jesus, I love you baby, you are so beautiful. Wahh I feel so ( Read more... )

I'm rocking back and forth in my chair...scared and lonley. This isn't the first time.

Everywhere I turn, I see another ending, fuck.

I forgot my medications.

I'm in for a long night, it's getting worse. I feel like 8th grade all over again.

I just got back from shopping. For my first semester I had a 3.000 GPA. Yeah that's not that "wonderful" but for me it's a hell of an improvement. I got a Honor Award at school for it, a retarted pin, whoo.. So my dad took me shopping for it, and spent around $150.00 on me just for that. I mean seriously, I should get a cookie, not a million ( Read more... )

So Ethen had the fucking balls to call me last night at ten fucking thirty to tell me that he doesn't think it's right for Todd to come to "our" group because of his age. Haha Ethen, you're a fuck face! For one, if it wasn't for Casi and I, you wouldn't have any fucking CLUE about group and nor would you even pretend to so called lead it. Ethen ( Read more... )

Goddamnit I am so tired.
As you all know, I got my hair cut. I like it, it took a few days to get used to but, I do like it!! Things have been all over the place for me latley but it almost feels like I'm starting to get them all sorted out. Which is nice. Casi is on her way over, I'm dead beat, I wanna nap so I think I'm going to take a quick one

I feel kinda bad, I think...
I really really want to do something, knowing my consiquences will be severe and non-enjoyable, still it runs through my mind time and time again. I just have to hold out for about a half hour, then maybe I can get it out of my system. Fuck, what am I doing!

I think I'm far to selfish. I'm also far to jelouse and protective. It's retarted, because about the smallist things, or things less important, upsets me and makes me jelouse!! Which in my eyes is horrible, some people say it's cute and shows affecting and that I care, but to me I find it annoying. But god, it erks me to no end, and it's nothing ( Read more... )

I'm having such great days. With my love casi, my wonderful uncle...everything seems to be in order! Which terrifies me to death, because this is exactly what happens. I get these perfect days of my life, feel like the king of the world, and then I'm droped one hundred feet down and smack the gravel road that I used to soar above. I guess I should ( Read more... )

So today was amazing ( Read more... )

Uhm, I don't know what to think.
I'm quite torn...what did I do? Fuck.