i'm hovering in chains.

there's really nothing more i want but to fly high again.

escape!

"How bitterly glad I am to see you. You bring joy and pain in equal measure. Joy because you are with me, but pain because it won't be for long. What do you know about the sea? Nothing. What do I know about the sea? Nothing. Without a driver this bus is lost. Our lives are over. Come aboard if your destination is oblivion-- It should be our next ( Read more... )

the thing i will perhaps most remember about my 2 years in the airforce is being involved in 2 military funeral preparations.

one serviceman was a year older than me
and the second one is of the same age as me.
i could have very well passed him by along the corridor or in the cookhouse while he was in the unit.

but what really strikes a chord, is the ( Read more... )

lately, i've been getting this:
"you're still young"
"you are so young"
"you still have time"
and that i think too much.
i shouldn't be, because i'm "still young"

i turned twenty a couple of days ago,
and really, it scared me on my birthday.
it still scares me. the number.
and how we can never press the reverse button.
and how the number seems to be re- ( Read more... )

I've realised that I haven't been around Singapore that much.
As with many of my weekends / fridays of late, i spent it with alcohol. 
It was a first though, spending the whole night at the fullerton & marina bay area and reaching home at a time when I would be leaving for work on a weekday. I should do it often (not referring to the alcohol) but for ( Read more... )

I think I'd turn out to be one of those guys who actually have to work and pay for their tertiary education ( Read more... )

the family pet hamster died yesterday.
it was already dead in its pretty green plastic cage, lying there all thin and frail
in the process of decomposing, the flies feasting on its flesh and the ants on to
its half-nibbled chocolate snack which my sister bought for it just last week.

and i came home early this morning completely wasted from a night out ( Read more... )

I dropped by my uncle's place tonight. My aunt and him were the only ones who bought a christmas tree, lit it up and piled presents up underneath it. They gave them out to their neighbours and us. It was their practice though to call every one of us a couple of nights before christmas to ask us what we wanted exactly. So it was no mystery what was ( Read more... )

a rush to try out all those festive food and drink ( Read more... )

i'm scared.
i'm thinking and thinking and thinking.
back and forth, rewinding and going forwards, even though there's no reel of film to go over with.
but i'm still thinking and grinding everything up.
i'm not eschewing anything, but i'm not doing enough.
it's worse, when you know it yourself that you're not doing anything.
i'm afraid to shift the pieces ( Read more... )