so, i'm pregnant. and emotional. maybe i'll start using this again, for my own personal well-being. i have crazy dreams and they're driving me nuts because of a particular reason that won't ever be said. i can only just hope and hope that things turn out the way i want them to. i'm sure they will though. i'm pretty positive it will it's just an ( Read more... )

i am consumed.
i am an addict.
but i do no drugs.
i'm 12 hours away from home,
and i don't care.
to me,
i have no home.

am i safe?
am i truly safe?
yes.
but, why the imposition?
why now?
i was warned against every second of this.....

I AM....
I DON'T KNOW WHO I AM.
DO YOU?

so trapped.
please, give me some strength.
i am made for so much more.

twenty. going on twenty one.
i feel like i'm stuck.
jeff and i broke up.
for good.
should've been over way long ago,
but hey...at least i'm not a quitter.
i'm okay.
i guess.
life goes on.

i just need some $$.

fuck a one and a half.
fuck a family.
fuck being held back.
fuck minimum wage.
fuck bad moods.

yesterday was my 19th birthday. i had a good day. my boyfriend spent the day with me, and i saw my dad for the first time in a very long time. i don't know how i feel about that. he asked me & my boyfriend to go camping, i don't know yet. i miss camping, i used to love going. i remember picking berries & just walking up the trails to Charlie's Pond ( Read more... )

you're a sweetdream, or a beautiful nightmare :)

so, how is a 19 year old in 20 days supposed to feel? is it like this? because, i don't really exactly like it. is love supposed to feel this way? is it really love? does 8 months count for anything? so many questions...not nearly enough answers. but maybe that's the fun of it. never knowing. maybe, just maybe, i shouldn't think so much into ( Read more... )

wondering if anyone still uses this, or finds me. find me...

so since 19 weeks again (wow; very long time).
i don't know if anyone reads this anymore, but actually i hope they don't.

i think i might be losing it.