I haven't made a post here in pretty much over a year, and have decided, due to a friend, that I want to start making posts again.  A lot has happened since last I've been on here. But I've noticed from reading my old posts how much I have changed and grown. I realize how timid I was, sad, and depressed. I should say that  a lot has changed/ ( Read more... )

Every time I'm here, I feel as if I'm posting something that has to do with why I feel so lost. Or that I want something, but can't find a way to get it. A part of me wants to change myself, and I go one that with the thought that maybe things could be better that way, or it's one less thing that I have to worry about. I'm not like other girls, and ( Read more... )

I finally a few things that I wanted done. Quite childish, but I wanted something done and a few new things. I think my god mom got me a pink hoodie, which I've been wanting for a while. The only difference is that I wanted mine with my university's name on it.  This one is from Miami, so we'll she what she did. Haha, I don't let her dress me.

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I hate feeling like nothing's changed in my life. College is supposed to be different than high school. Why am I so used to people looking right through me. I don't understand it. Someone told me that it wasn't good.

Honestly I can see much clearer than the average young adult. I guess that's what makes me different than everyone else.

You're so confused and you feel that so much has happened.

I feel like I've lost it all. I feel like I have nothing to offer, and it's always going to be that way. I don't know what to do but I know how I can change.

My first step is to start going to the rec more often, and then trying to get there everyday. My second step is to put cocoa butter on every inch of my body. And then I'm going to start dieting ( Read more... )

I see him everyday; and to not see him is weird. To not see him or talk to him just messes me up. I get that empty feeling inside. I talked to him once today, and that was it ( Read more... )

I didn't know that I looked miserable almost all of the time. Nothing is wrong, I'm fine. As always.

I believe there are times when you contemplate being done with the world. Not by removing yourself from it physically ( Read more... )

And I feel like throwing up.