I haven't written in a while...So let's see...I'm back in school and it will be a whole week tomorrow.I missed my friends but thats about it.I can't wait till I'm out of school.Not even a week and I already want out.I guess thats because, I miss Amanda, I can't see her alot only on weekends. Sometimes durring the week but not alot. I also want out ( Read more... )

My mother is the most confusing person in the entire world. Sometime she makes it seem like she would be better off if I were dead. So I don't like to stay at my house because there is nothing for me to do. I go downstairs and talk with her for a while and the Jake and/or Rickey come over to smoke with her and I don't smoke so I go up stairs and ( Read more... )

Well I work all day to day came home got bitched at for being mad because I hate fucking walking home from walking the pony's all day. Then we order food and I fell asleep waiting for it. Josh wakes me up to go eat I come down stairs to eat. I was going to go back to bed but I checked my e-mail first to see if Channelle wrote me back and I checked ( Read more... )

hmmm....need to wright and get stuff out and i thought hey why not wright in my lj because not alot of people know i have it and the ones that do i trust...huh...well i just went for a walk to think about some stuff and i only figured out why i dont go for walks in new bedford any more...shit headed ignorant people...thats why...anyways...i went to ( Read more... )

i havent been here in such a long long time...let's see what's new...i got a job the other day...it's at the Zoo...yes, yes the zoo...i'm a pony bitch...its ok tho its not a hard job at all and i get payed 8 dollars an hour...my mommy still wont let me get a car...she sucks anyways...ill probally be like 5452165454254564524564 yeahs old and she ( Read more... )

I have a razor and old feelings....what am I going to do?....My head already hurts from thinking too much...it's even hard to wright...I just want these feelings to go away and never come back...but they always always come back to haunt me...to tell you the truth I just want to lay down and die...the only thing that is keeping me from doing that is ( Read more... )

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to update on my life...lets see my birthday has come and gone it was an ok birthday tho to my surprize...Amanda is so cute she got me a cake...hmmm...iv have gotten a real lot closer to her too with some stuff that we have gone through...i love my friends at school we are all like the old times and i really missed that...i can actually talk to jill ( Read more... )

wow today sucked ass...first off i wore a skirt to school and the first thing off the bus there is this girl and for some fucking reason she hates me but anyways i was wearing my boots with it and she has the same ones...she looks at my boot and goes "o god" and wispers to her fucking boyfriend about me...then Bob just laughted at me...i felt so ( Read more... )

i feel all sick and stuff...i stayed home today cuz i got food poisioning...huh...go me...right now im all sorts of cold and i'm hungry cuz i have not eaten anything but lunch the other day...but the thought of food makes me want to puke...so im stuck between a rock and a hard place...iv always wanted to say that...anywho, i just wanted to wright ( Read more... )