It has been a long ass time.I was feeling nostalgic and logged in. Reading the shit I wrote when I was 21, I think I am quite possibly the silliest girl who ever live. Which further serves my theory about how people don't every really change when it comes to their innate characteristics. I don't know whether to feel like that is a comfort or to be ( Read more... )

I'm still here, wishing I wasn't. I'm still here, cripplingly silent. I'm still here quietly listening to the lies and deception being harshly unfolded before my eyes. I'm still here getting sick, getting angry. I'm still here being used, being degraded. I'm still here having finally realised the poison has been in you all along. The poison that's ( Read more... )

I broke up with lee on sunday. It's over, for good, never going back. I've had enough. I am moving out this week. Everything is gone except my dresser and some boxes. I don't know what to feel or think. I am blindly going and i feel empty, sad, lost, angry, happy, free and liberated all at once. Two years of being together and this is how it ends ( Read more... )

my humble boy roses died. I'm sad. I feel sequestered. I miss my friends

i did my own taxes yesterday. It was not very fun. It drove me to the drink! I bought vodka and had one cocktail, and lee and our housemate brady were home today...there is a punchline....oh, just you wait ( Read more... )

Can someone please tell me love is so blind. Why love fixes to bind? Why my heart races and my skin rises in shivers when you touch my body? Why holding hands while making love has made the bond between two so hard to break? I wonder if it is a bond seeled at both ends. I wonder if I am the only one who will never break it. I think I am NOT. The ( Read more... )

The Rules ( Read more... )

Why is it that not many people asaide from ourselves and a small number of friends are nice and tolerable drunks. I just realized that I really don't like beligerent people. Especially when they are keeping me awake at 3 in the morning when I have to be up at 7 for work on a sturday. bleh. I stayed up til like 1130 or so watching a film called ( Read more... )

Happy St. Patties Day Everyone. Hope you all eat yummy food and drink lots of yummy guiness.

Can I just ask a random question that I would like feedback for...it's my own little survey. How much do y'all spend per month on utilities? PG&E, cable, any applicable costs. Please let me know and be specific. I am trying to prove a theory I have ( Read more... )