Well good morning world. I am trying to keep it cheerful. I have S.A.D. and it really sucks when it is cloudy and rainy like it has been for 3 days. But the good news is I HAVE A JOB ( Read more... )

Last Thursday I was in Wal Mart with Mel and I started to get some rather severe pains on the right side of my jaw and it radiated down to my sternum then over to my left breast. Now I have enough medical knowledge to make me dangerous so I decided to go to the ER. It was heart pain so I had to stay overnight ( Read more... )

I am so glad 2007 is OVER. I pray that 08 is better ( Read more... )

Allison and I got her stuff out of storage today with the help of 2 teenage men that her man friend hired to help us. What a great day. I took them to lunch at a buffet and they ate like hungry teens. It was so wonderful. All I could do was remember Alan and friends eating my cooking. Gawd I loved it. Miss it toooooooo much. My heart hurts ( Read more... )

Allison found an apartment and she and Olivia moved out today. It has been very eye opening with them here. We have had our moments but what has been wonderful is how alive I have been and felt. We talked today and she had to admit that my home is NOT warm and friendly. Up stairs in the attic where they have been living is so cozy and fun. I am ( Read more... )

Hot, Hot, Hot. It was 109 here yesterday. Olivia is here and Allison will be here on the 8th. We think we might have to put a room air ( Read more... )

It only rained for about 2 hours today. Yah ( Read more... )

Went to the docs and told I was getting better. Doesn't feel like it. But at least I'm not in the hosp ( Read more... )

I have started a new job. Not a paying job but volunteering doing peer counseling. I really don't have any power over the clients I am there just to listen. If I feel that I have a constructive suggestion I can give it but the client has full freedom to accept or reject my ideas ( Read more... )

It is 2:30 a.m. and I can't take it any longer. I have never lived like this. Where do I go. I am not trapped and yet I feel trapped ( Read more... )