cuntshapedheart

New LJ. Add it or be disowned from my life.

Sometimes I wish I was brave. I wish I was stronger. I wish I could feel no pain. I wish I was young. I wish I was shy. I wish I was honest. I wish I was you not I. 'Cause I feel so mad, I feel so angry, I feel so callused. So lost, confused, again. I feel so cheap, So used, unfaithful. Let's start over. Let's start over. Sometimes I wish I was ( Read more... )

God, this is eating away at me. Please get online and talk to me. I feel hopeless with you upset with me. I can't take this. I don't know what to do. If I somehow lost you, I might as well be dead cause the last month that I've known you has been the best time of my life. Please, talk to me. I can feel the tears welling up. I need a distraction.

I love Something Corporate.

"And so I fall. I don't want to feel this small. You know I just cant handle this, handle this at all. And I'll just fall. I let my heartbeat drop. I faulter as the music stops and you watch me as I stall and wonder when I fall."

I wanna be good news for once. I want to be a high point in someones day as opposed to ruining their day per usual ( Read more... )

I don't know how to explain what's going on inside my head right now. I'm not necisarrily angry as much as I feel decieved. Like it's all be one big lie. And that hurt's more than I could ever imagine. I don't know why I let this shit get to me. It's not my life to dictate. It's a good thing I still have feelings for you or else I'd be able to let ( Read more... )

( i feel the fire tonight )

I want this weekend to be over. I want to just sit around and listen to CocoRosie for the rest of my life. Just me, my CD's, and my room. I'd be content. Fuck other people. I don't need this heartache anymore. I should just become a recluse.

"Board up the windows and blacken the walls. Best to consider me dead as well."

( i wanna fuck you in your god hands when your praying bites the dust )

I miss Sam and Missy and Crystal ( Read more... )