Its Christmas.
I am still in over my head.
I miss my family, and feel sad about not being/doing everything I want.
But there is a roast to cook, and potatoes to peel...no time for this nonsense.
Life could be worse.

I have not seen this much rain here in California...ever ( Read more... )

Time to get back on track with updating this thing.
I have been writting on paper instead...there is something much more...I just feel more in touch with a pen and paper in hand...
But I will get back to this soon...sometimes its easier to type, much faster it seems.
Things are chaotic in my life, but what else is new huh?

Surgery. Check
Meds in hand. Check
Feeling better today than yesterday. Check
Having a list of things to do longer than I know what to do with. Check
Trying to find motivation......not quite a check yet...

Wow ( Read more... )

I am beat. The last two weks have been exhausting. I have been trying to stay supoprtive of A, while trying to repair me, and working like crazy, but feeling bad for only giving a half assed effort while at work ( Read more... )

Bread. Yummy and crusty and rustic. Hot with butter. Homemade strawberry jam. Oh! Or french toast made with a left over crusty loaf of bread ( Read more... )

I blew off all plans for tonight, and did nothing. I feel sort of ok about that. But I am starting to feel unproductive, and want to do nothing more than eat popcorn and watch tv ( Read more... )

And so the journey begins. I have resisted this. It seems I have no emotions other than melancholy or anger....and when I DO have happinss, it is over the top, but so fleeting. And sadness....well...tears come in floods, but never at a time when I am able to deal with them, or have time in my schedule...usually rushing off to work, sitting in ( Read more... )

So much has gone on in the past weeks, months ( Read more... )