so maybe its the sad songs in the background. or maybe the play falling apart. or maybe the lack of closeness at the moment. but im feeling insanely emo and sad.

but music from the o.c. is good.

but then again, feeling unwanted is not.
we kiss. and cuddle. and hold hands. but i know you dont mean it. and i hate thinking this. but. i dont know ( Read more... )

ok so right now, definitly supposed to be doing SAT prep work. but im not.

oh well.

yeah. i jsut realized how everything is creeping up on me. this play. valentines day. yeah. thats only 2 things, but still.

the play. ugh. thats all you can say about it. i dont even know if its worth it anymore. it is the most stressful thing ever. just ugh.

and ( Read more... )

ok isnt it weird how everything can suddenly shift. like read my last post then ask me how i am right now. wow. totally flipped.

right now life is excellent. well. its probably more then excellent, but i dont want to make tooo big of a deal out of it. even though it is a big deal. and it is excellent. and exciting. and wonderful. but still. i dont ( Read more... )

oh gosh. life is going slowly but surely down the porcelin peehole.

im so depressed. i hate this feeling.

i went home half day from school. i felt like death. and still do. ugh.

so everything sucks. and i dont know what to do.

i really do like him. but wow. the more i tihnk about it. its not gunna work. and i dont think he feels the same. he may ( Read more... )

this is kara, yo.
fo' shizzle.

well, not technically.
it's her lesser half, tally jane.

butttt i lovvvvvvvvve herrrrrr.

yes, yes i do.
more than you do.
so theereererere.

theeee end.<33

im starting to notice all of these tails on people i know, they werent there over an hour ago... my ears are ringing from the sound of sqweaking... i smell a rat, i smell a slew of them... and its not myself, so it must be everybody else. i smell a rat.
heh. nothing beats a playlist consisting of only say anything.

life is good. no. i take it back ( Read more... )

well lets jsut come out and say it. it was an excruciatingly excellent weekend. like wow.

friday was awesome with bowling. and then joyriding til 1ish.<33 hes a good kid. im glad we're like on good terms. i like talking to him and sitting in his mazda miata.

then saturday. maddie by day, party by night. jk.... i cant go into details. but lets say ( Read more... )

i've never felt this empty. well. i have, but we dont think about that time.

"and if i deid, it would be fine, if i died by your side..."

i hate only posting bad things....like bad thoughts... so i thought of something happpy.... kinda...

theres a boy. and i like him. and i think he may return the feeling? but i dont think he knows yet, which ( Read more... )

ok so. i dunno what i wanna talk about... im so bored.. and lonely. even surrounded by people im lonely. i hate it. im done with dating. forever. screw it.

i dunno what to do. im just argrggrgghhggg blah. i hate liking who i like. and i hate not seeing people i want to. and i hate not having money or clothes. and i hate being a lard ass lol. i  ( Read more... )

                            ok... so...

Accounting = BORING

not fun times..

but the library is ok. quiet. and interesting. im listening in to other convos. kinda funny. like kayla talking to the martin. about tons of snow. crazy funny foreign kid.

but now ( Read more... )