And forget about your awful past
[On October 12th the four year anniversary of my first post in this journal passed. I didn't realize the significance of the day until around 11:30pm and that saddened me for some reason. There was a time, not that long ago, when the idea of ever giving this journal up seemed like a horrible passing thought. I thought I'd have the thing until Livejournal shut down the community or the internet exploded. Then, in the past few months, I started to get distracted by other things. That has happened before and I thought it would pass.
Finally, today actually, I realized it wasn't going to pass. There was no point in continuing the slow long death the journal was going through. There was no reason to keep the small handful of people Damon interacted with in hope that I'd snap out of it. I think the journal just finally reached a logical conclusion. A friend/mentor once said that every journal character had to have something s/he wanted to keep the thing going. There had to be some goal or achievement that they were striving for, even if it was small, to keep it relevant. Damon doesn't have that anymore and that's okay. As another friend commented one day, Blur seems to have done everything under the sun that there was to do. So, after much rambling and thought, I've decided to close this journal. I'm picking a replacement, if there is anyone interested, and anyone is welcome to email/comment for the part.
I made a lot of great and weird friends during my time in this community. Many of them are gone from the journals where I got to know them but I think they're still floating around. I wanted to say how much their support and odd ways were appreciated these past four years. amanda_latona, dave_rowntree, winstanley, angiejolie, k__kurkova, and kate__winslet are just a handful of the old and dearly departed journals that I owe quite a lot of my existence here, and the good times I had, to. It's impossible to express appreciation toward every single journal Damon ever interacted with but those especially feel like they deserve a big thank you.
graham__coxon also deserves a lot of credit for not only dealing with my ridiculous character but for putting up with me outside of it too. That player made me like Graham again as a musician, something I hadn't done in years. jonnyleemiller, who is still floating around, also gets a special mention for being the source of much fun and long late night AIM conversations in those early years.
And, of course, there's alex_james. Alex is the reason I started playing here. They were half of my nearly constant storyline over the past four years and they are, without a shadow of a doubt, the most amazing writer I've ever had the privilege of sharing an IM window with. I've got CDs full of logs between our characters, miles on my car from our visits and a lot of great memories all because of Alex's ability to stay interesting and unexpected and fresh after everything. There's not enough time to ever say how much I appreciate having the opportunity to not only talk to this person, but be a part of a story they helped create.
I always said I'd never be one of those people who wrote a long and drawn out goodbye post, but I lied. I blame it on the fact that it's hard to leave once you actually decide you're going to do it. I don't have anymore journals in this community so if someone is interested in staying in touch outside of the game they should leave a note or send an email.
I never felt like I was the best person for this character but I did enjoy myself and I guess that's all that matters in the end. Thanks everyone.]
Finally, today actually, I realized it wasn't going to pass. There was no point in continuing the slow long death the journal was going through. There was no reason to keep the small handful of people Damon interacted with in hope that I'd snap out of it. I think the journal just finally reached a logical conclusion. A friend/mentor once said that every journal character had to have something s/he wanted to keep the thing going. There had to be some goal or achievement that they were striving for, even if it was small, to keep it relevant. Damon doesn't have that anymore and that's okay. As another friend commented one day, Blur seems to have done everything under the sun that there was to do. So, after much rambling and thought, I've decided to close this journal. I'm picking a replacement, if there is anyone interested, and anyone is welcome to email/comment for the part.
I made a lot of great and weird friends during my time in this community. Many of them are gone from the journals where I got to know them but I think they're still floating around. I wanted to say how much their support and odd ways were appreciated these past four years. amanda_latona, dave_rowntree, winstanley, angiejolie, k__kurkova, and kate__winslet are just a handful of the old and dearly departed journals that I owe quite a lot of my existence here, and the good times I had, to. It's impossible to express appreciation toward every single journal Damon ever interacted with but those especially feel like they deserve a big thank you.
graham__coxon also deserves a lot of credit for not only dealing with my ridiculous character but for putting up with me outside of it too. That player made me like Graham again as a musician, something I hadn't done in years. jonnyleemiller, who is still floating around, also gets a special mention for being the source of much fun and long late night AIM conversations in those early years.
And, of course, there's alex_james. Alex is the reason I started playing here. They were half of my nearly constant storyline over the past four years and they are, without a shadow of a doubt, the most amazing writer I've ever had the privilege of sharing an IM window with. I've got CDs full of logs between our characters, miles on my car from our visits and a lot of great memories all because of Alex's ability to stay interesting and unexpected and fresh after everything. There's not enough time to ever say how much I appreciate having the opportunity to not only talk to this person, but be a part of a story they helped create.
I always said I'd never be one of those people who wrote a long and drawn out goodbye post, but I lied. I blame it on the fact that it's hard to leave once you actually decide you're going to do it. I don't have anymore journals in this community so if someone is interested in staying in touch outside of the game they should leave a note or send an email.
I never felt like I was the best person for this character but I did enjoy myself and I guess that's all that matters in the end. Thanks everyone.]