I am such a waste of life.

Okay world. You win. I'll spend the thousands of dollars I don't have to go to a school that I don't want to go to, to learn things I won't understand, in the hopes of getting a bachelors degree, so I can be magically entitled to all these other jobs that will open up. Yes, I will spend the next 2 years of my life doing a job I hate for a company ( Read more... )

Someday, I will live in a home. One where I am not on edge. Where I don't have to walk on egg shells, or deal with people who don't listen to what you say, or speak before they think. One where if I want to sit on a couch, I can sit on the couch and not be subject to all the negativity about me. Where I can eat dinner with the TV on and hope the ( Read more... )

I want to be snuggled :(

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There are a lot of negative thoughts and feelings expressed in past entries. Went through the past 3 years and its sort of disheartening cause a lot of the entries are still applicable.

I've only been up for 30 minutes, and I already feel like it's going to be "one of those days." :(

What the hell is wrong with me?

I'm such a fuck up.

I wish I could open up more to my close friends.

Why do I even bother anymore?

There are very few people/things in this world that I care about right now.

I can't even say how I feel, cause I don't know how I feel.

I don't know where I want to be, but I just don't want to be HERE right now.

I hate you, and what you do to me, and the way you make me feel, and the fact that YOU DON'T SEEM TO CARE. I hate how every time this happens you just seem to go on without it phasing you. I hate how you lie. I know you are. And if you're not, I hate how it just seems like you are. Everything is just to damn convenient to use as an excuse. I hate ( Read more... )