i spent most of my day yesterday in the emergency room.
i have never hurt this much.
average white blood cell count: 9
mine: 24
average heartbeat/rate: 60
mine: 160

they lyed there in the comfort of his bed with his warm body against her's and their breathing as one. she asked him not to get too attached because everything was temporary and she didn't mean to do what she was going to do. he looked at her, smiled, and said, "girl, i know what you're doing and it's all okay. everything will be okay." and kissed ( Read more... )

you know what i hate? when i write this long ass entry and one of my co-workers decide to delete it. totallly not cool ( Read more... )

Leave your name and ( Read more... )

i'm deleting this el jay.
i need to start over with things.
i already started a new journal, but it's all private.
no, this delete won't be permanent.
i just don't know when i'm going to come back.
but i will be back.maybe a different person ( Read more... )

adderal hasn't worked.
i still can't sit still.
and time is running out. so many tests, so little time.
my heart is heavy and beating hard.
i cannot get him out of my head.
5more days and it's 20 months.
if we go down, we go down together.it's 4:52am ( Read more... )

i feel like these posts are so repetitive ( Read more... )

If you read this, even if I don't speak to you often,
you must reply with a memory of me. It can be anything you want -- good or bad, just as long as it happened.
Then post this up yourself and see what people remember about you.

when it rains, it pours. story of my life ( Read more... )

okay. whoever is directly linking my pictures, stop. you are taking up my bandwith space.
i would really hate to turn this journal into friends only because i'm picky and i don't like censorship.
so pictures might be friends only. if you have my on your friend's list just so you can see pictures, sorry.
i hate watermarking all my photos.