school starts tomorrow and im not going back. i already regret it. maybe if i had the slightest idea of what i wanted to do in the future than i wouldnt be so scared. but i dont know what i want..so i am scared. everything is blurry.

I feel like everyone but me has it figured out. It scares me.

ahhh!! i want to sleep! i shouldnt have taken a nap after the beach. i couldnt really control it though. my tiredness overcame my body and i feel asleep whether i wanted to or not. then i woke up feeling terrible. i just want to eat something without feeling sick. at least im not throwing up! thats good news

( dreamin' )

at 8 pm on a night when i know i'll just be staying in i always think "uggh this is going to be such a long boring night". the next thing i know its 1:30. how does a person find that much entertainment on the internet? obviously its possible because ive dont it several times. it makes me feel reallll lame though. hah.

last but not least,


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i feel like no ones listening. or just that no one cares. i need an answer. i dont even care if its the answer to the problem i need solved. just give me an answer. please.

sometimes i like myself, but most of the time i dont.

i got bangs, not bags, haha thank you sarah today. thats the only thing that matters. the ONLY thing.

i really would like to move out. i think its a possibility if i work 40 hours a week. buuut when school starts again i dont know what i would do. i also want to join a gym. i know that if im paying to work out i will go. i really just want to take pilates and yoga classes. also, i want to go on vacation. ahhh want want want. i need to stop ( Read more... )

i just want to be happy. i dont care what im doing or where i live or how much money i make..i just want to be happy. i feel like ive just been running in one of those hamster wheels for like..the past two years. i feel like im no fun. i never feel like im having fun. ughhhh. i seriously hate school so much. i seriously hate my job so much. and i ( Read more... )

im looking for some friends. i need friends. girls preferably. girls that will hang out with me and not ignore me, and by ignore i mean not return my calls/texts/dont meet me somewhere you say you are (i dont think thats actually happened to me..but it could). also, girls that dont suck. im bored all the time and i need someone to hang out with. ( Read more... )

I would rather live my whole life believing in God and die and find out he isn’t real than live my whole life not believing and die and wish I had always believed ( Read more... )