This is strange, Im fixing to get ready to go out with Jeremy, not stressing at all and now bam about 30 min to go and Im nervous. Why am I nervous? We're just friends...right?

Amy

Hello everyone! Well my week back at school hasnt been nearly as bad as expected. I hadnt seen Dustin at all this week until this morning and he walked by and made eye contact but that was it. He is "in love" now and I guess thats all great and dandy. Ya wanna know what makes it worse? His girlfriend is actually really nice. ugh ( Read more... )

Well I havent been able to sleep this entire week down here (4 hrs each night to the max) and Ive been sick as a dog on top of that. Last night my mom gave me a zanex and I was KNOCKED OUT at 8 and didnt wake up till about 9 this morning, it was great. All morning long the "women of the kitchen" cooked and then we ate a LOT LOT LOT of yummy food. ( Read more... )

I went shopping in California today and it was great. I got a cool new fossil watch, 6 new shirts, some jeans, sweatpants, 2 new belly rings, some new shoes a purse & a wallet. It feels almost kind of good to be getting all these "new" things, kinda signifying my "new" start. Just last wkend I got a whole new bedroom thing. ( redid the whole room) ( Read more... )

Soooooooooo its 5 am here and ive been up sense 3. I just cannot sleep down here, i dont know what the deal is. Ive been sick ever sense i left home,ugh. I hope i feel better tomarrow so i can eat all the yummy thanksgiving food! Then when i come home i get to eat again on sat at my grandmas! yay! Well i bought the new julie roberts cd (break down ( Read more... )

In a way I feel sorry for him. What kind of a life is it when the only things that matter to you are how much ass you can get and how much weed you can smoke? Not to mention he wishes he could make a race change. It sucks though when u find out that u meant absolutly nothing to someone and it also sucks that he is such a good lier, sucks for that ( Read more... )

I guess I had it coming. Everyone saw what an asshole Dustin was except me, I guess I saw it but it was easier for me to ignore it. I defended him when all of you said he was trash, why? Not sure.... Today at school (you know, while I'm in Arizona and he thinks I wont find out)He tells a rather large group of females (guess he was trying to mack ( Read more... )

I wrote this for Dustin today, sitting in 1st period after another one of our scenes....I know I'll never give this to him ( Read more... )

Yup, This happens just as it always does. Everything is ok now. When I say ok, I dont mean anything is fixed it just means that there was a "reason" and Im not as angry as I was. However Im not dumb either meaning that I know these "reasons" are usually just "excuses". I dont know why I cannot just say I know youre lying or there is more to this ( Read more... )

I think I finally get it, its all starting to sink in, YOURE TOO MUCH OF A WUSS TO EVEN TELL ME THAT YOU DONT LIKE ME ANYMORE! "Im a man" my ass, being a man has so much more to do with than years youve been alive! The not calling me, the constant avoiding me, its all starting to click. God how Ive wanted to ignore it, why cant you just say, ok Amy ( Read more... )