I'm so scared. and can't wait for tomorrow to be over. THough I won't know that everything is going to be okay until Thursday at the earliest. That's when they'll know if they got everythng. I pray that they get everything. I can't believe this is happening, it always happens to other people. You never think that i could "happen to me". I just need ( Read more... )

I reallycan't believe how much I like Richard. I really think I could fall in love with him, but I'm really scared to do it. Mainly because I don't want to get hurt again and because I have so many questions as to what our future could hold. For example, what's going to happen when he goes to North Conway? He said that he's still going to still be ( Read more... )

Is it my turn to be in love and happy? I guess I'll have to wait till Jan. to truly find an answer to my question.

I think it's ironic that this is what I wrote nearly two years ago (nov 4, 2005) when i was in a relationship. huh, guess not all that much has really changed now, huh?

"Why can't it JUST be me? Why does it always have to be me and somebody else? ARRRGGGG "

I hate how much I tell you ( Read more... )

I guess they aren't getting back together. I was supposed to meet her last night with him at the old port. But something happened so my friends and I went and watched the Midgets dance instead. ... and well some other people too. So if they aren't getting back together than what does that mean? Hmm we're just friends and that's how I need to leave ( Read more... )

I don't understand why people go back to relationships where there's no basis or foundation to it. I don't get why a person would go back to a relationship where all they do is fight and all they really have together is great sex. That makes NO sense to me. All I've heard is bad stuff about this relationship and yet he's going back to it. I ( Read more... )

I think I'm reaching my breaking point. I honestly don't think I can do this anymore unless there is a future for us in the near future. I could hold out a little while longer, but I don't want to. I want to know if there's something around the corner or if I should just start moving on now. I told him that we need to talk and I'm scared for this ( Read more... )

I don't remember posting that last entry. Wierd. Seriously.

Plus he does like me, but I'm confused but it all. I should just put the gaurd up and call it good.

Blah I hate love

Yup, he popped back in. Must be the full moon, why else would he message me on aim? I don't understand how he still has my sn and yet I was the one "still oh so obsessed with him". gah. Whatever. At least I can handle it, sort of now. I'm not balling my eyes out nor am I wanting to punch a hole through the computer ( Read more... )