“He wants them to learn to walk and must therefore take away His hand; and if only the will to walk is really there He is pleased even with their stumbles.”  
        -The Screwtape Letters

I berate, bash, and belittle myself whenever I come into view of my sin. For some reason, I react in a self-despising way, feeling worthless and unlovable. I ( Read more... )

"and then on sundays, we pretend to go to church - because we're in the south." 
-random dean and deluca customer

we count down the days to graduation, to summer, to college.
we automatically assume that the next stage in life will be greater than the one in which we are.

so
      we plan.
      we hope.
      we dream. 
      we wait.

but whatever happened to living?

open scene.

dad: covenant day is having a prom?
lori: yes, dad.
dad: and who are you going with?
lori: sam crawford
dad: ...well... he never called me to ask me if he could take you
lori: neither did my date last year
dad: oh..who was your date last year?
lori: michael wilson 
dad: oh. well. hmph. 
lori: (walks out)

close scene.

God is good.

Psalm 30. in lori's words.

I’ll extol you, God my King

For you have lifted me

Upon the Rock that stands eternally

To you I cried out in pain

And surely you healed me

You brought my soul into a new life

(and made me sing)

Holy is the Lord

Sing praises to him

Holy is the Lord

All the earth sing

Holy is the Lord

Sing praises unto

Holy is the ( Read more... )

...and this time i'm not so sure it even makes sense....

People are multi-dimensional. They have layers. They aren’t always as they appear. However you want to put it, the principle rings true: people are naturally philosophically deep.

Some people try and compartmentalize this portion of their being. They are surface livers, content with having ( Read more... )

that honed steel edged ( Read more... )

we caution ourselves so much not to place too high expectations on our futures that we often forget to set expectations at all. then we settle for what other people have projected onto us ( Read more... )

oh to the really big snap

i didn't see that one coming.

i suppose i should have
but, i didn't.

yes, i may be pitching a somewhat more adult version of a hissy fit.

but doesn't he realize that nearly everything he does makes me want to rebel
like he claims i already have

he doesn't even know 
keep this up and
the best is yet to come