death is something no one likes to talk about, let alone even think about. but why? why is it so hard to imagine? why is it so horrendous? death to me is like a new beginning. one in which i know not of what it consists of... in one of my philosophy classes, we have talked of death and immortality... and it has become one of my obsessions. my ( Read more... )

had a pretty good weekend. actually, i had an excellent weekend. tiff and i double-dated with my two buddies Andy and Jimmy. we then went bowling for the first time in our relationship! its been over 4 and a half years since i bowled! hell it was a blast ( Read more... )

so, i live in toledo ohio. the infamous town of the riots that had taken place last month or so, brought in part by the neo-nazi movement. it was chaos when this happen, with the mayor issuing city wide curfews and getting off his lazy ass to actually do his job (and let me tell you, it takes a lot for that man to do a damn thing) and whats worse: ( Read more... )

just a rant and a rave...
i am so goddamn sick of fucking answering to people that have no business or if they have business spend too much goddamn time meddling in mine. ill quit smoking WHEN I WANT, ill go out WHEN I WANT, I LIVE FOR MYSELF... I MATTER, AND I CARE FOR MYSELF... I AM SICK OF THIS SHIT
-S

in somnolence ( Read more... )

things used to be so understood. understanding was something i experienced when i was three, learning newness for the first time, not now... not now. this map of mine, tarnished and torn is good for nothing, and into the fire it burns. i feel like burning everything experienced before this day, why experience it again? why look back? as if i know ( Read more... )

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i work tonight... i dont know.. i have so much to say.. so many damned words... its almost like.. im going insane... within... myself ( Read more... )

i havent written in this fucking thing for awhile now... i guess i felt as though i should today.. my head aches, what an awful day ( Read more... )

you know... i cant say i am one to really think and indulge in my awful ways... or even just who i am... today i really sat down and looked at who i was... i dont recognize myself in the mirror anymore... my eyes seem faded... maybe not so much faded as they are empty... hollow... the liveliness i once had has been sent away... i feel like a ( Read more... )