Don't say a word ( Read more... )

Oh life. trying to figure it out...ALWAYS. is it really necessary for everything to be this constant struggle? Is it simply, by default, human existance? To be in a constant state of Trying ( Read more... )

Jam last night. At first Thom and I had a lot of trouble finding the place, since we did not have a specific address. we knew sort of where it was, but not 100%. it was at a studio in Manhattan, called Smash. on W 36th street. it was cool...it's always a different mixture of people and this time was nice. A few people that i had never met, ( Read more... )

it's weird to realize that the last time i updated was only a couple of weeks ago. it feels like much much longer ( Read more... )

i am going out with 2 completely different people.

i am completely in Love with one of them.

and i totally fucking Hate the other one.

i always find myself saying, "Who the fuck are you?"

Astrology is Not Bullshit.

Puke!!

Yesterday i was dying, all day. I couldn't stop throwing up for a while. hours. it SUCKED. Saturday night i went to two parties. So i started drinking around 5:30...got home after 3. Keg beer tastes like nothing. it was like water after a while. Plus i didn't have my guardian angel (John<3) to watch over me. He was there but had to ( Read more... )

sowed a broken blue ocean with old wire hands. found in vacant lots the lonely shells of flowered plans. outside there for nothing. wives and lovers in ageless sorrow. on now to the wasted rooms and gardens and stricken yards.

sight now changing. sorrow building. light now leaving. our lives ending

blah blah blah blah

OH the constant struggle between doing the things i want, working, and being lazy ( Read more... )

my friend ( Read more... )