So Trevor got his birthday present yesterday, I think that he liked it. At least, I hope he did. I sent him cookies, a book, candy, a ring, and cologne.... i think that the only thing that he didnt like was the cologne. i dont think he really understood. thats ok, I loved it.... when Billy was wearing it I kept hugging Billy, if Trevor were to ( Read more... )

i told him that this distance thing was bothering me, but he just blew it off. tiis is a big deal for me! sometimes i just need a hug, but what can i do? i only want HIM.... and then i opened up myself to the biggest ridicule ever. i made myself sound like a whiny, needy, lame little girl. direct quote i said "I just.... need you". i mean cmon, i ( Read more... )

so it has literally been forever since i last posted.... i dated a guy named kevin, but i dont really want to talk about that ( Read more... )

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today i am dispirited, despondant, depressed, and deep in grief. well, not so much all that. but today i feel lonely. today lyle out me in a headlock, and for some reason, it made me think of hugs. and i realized that i havent been hugged by a dude in a long time. in fact i was thinkin of this the other day. i know it seems lame, but i got into ( Read more... )

god, i how did you guys stand it? i just reread my journal about kevin. gah. anywho i am quite proud of myself, today, for the first time, since.... well yea... i was actually somewhat interested in a boy (that wasnt kevin). now i know that seems so dumb because its only been like 9 weeks, but comeon, i have genuine interest in boys like almost ( Read more... )

heeheehee. i am so happy/sad. i am now dating kevin! yay, but he leaves for basic training in 33 days, boo. yesterday we went to see enchanted, which was somewhat ridiculous becuase its such a girly movie. i was so happy tho, and then we ended up driving around. at 1016 we pulled into my house, and then just sat in teh car talking until 11, which ( Read more... )

wheehaa. i am STILL excited. i wonder if i will always be this happy. i hope so! i have found the boy that i am going to marry, and he is so amazing. ok seriously listen to this, if this is not proof of retardedness, than i dont know what is ( Read more... )

i am almost irrationally happy. i just need to HUG something. the play went well. i had the best time at big boy last night. then i had a wonderful leaisurely day at home. and i just THOUGHT about so much. i know where i'm going with my life. finally. i know exactly what i want, and im going for it. i feel bad for loading down my friends with my ( Read more... )

so i WAS having a good day. the play went really well. i talked to deuschie for 40 min! he's so funny. so yea, thats totally coming back now. but then i got home right? and i started talking to solja boy. and he enlisted today. and he might get deployed in january. im so lost. i was thinking about it, and i might have fallen in love with him a ( Read more... )