I start rehearsals for A Chorus Line next week. We open the end of January. Then JCS and Fiddler and the season is done. However, I did get an offer for this summer. A theatre in the area is producing two Jason Robert Brown shows, Songs For A New World and The Last Five Years. The director saw me in Cabaret and liked me! He wants me to sing the ( Read more... )

Cabaret's over.

I've been overly lonely lately. I cut Dan and Lindsay out of my life. And now I've realized how lonely I am. I miss them. I'm going to watch Mean Girls and go to bed. I feel fat.

They want me to GAIN weight!! For Cabaret! "You look good Lauren, but if you were more curvy...it would be better". I KILLED myself to get down to this weight...10lbs...they want me to put 10lbs back on, so 95 which is what I weighed when I started Damn Yankees. I was down to 88/89 by the end of the show and now I'm at 85! Make up you're mind! They ( Read more... )

I'm doing a little better with this update thing.
My show opens Thursday night. (I'm playing Lola in a production of Damn Yankees for those who don't know). I really wanted to be down to 85lbs. That didn't exactly happen. I'm at 88 right now. But the show runs for 2 weeks, so I can lose 3lbs by next friday def. . I just think it will help me ( Read more... )

So again, I'm bad at updating ( Read more... )

Well its been a life time and more since I've updated this thing. I don't really have much to say. I dropped out of UB and am doing area theatre now, it pays, fairly well, and I've got another job too to help pay the bills, and I can always go bck next year to school. Its basically a leave of absence. I'm probably an idiot for doing it. Oh well. At ( Read more... )

So I'm horribly sick. I hate colds, especcially summer colds, they combine with your allergies to become super cold. I can't breathe, I can't sleep, I can't eat....and yet I still have to function at rehearsals ( Read more... )

I know I've been bad about updating this, and commenting in all of your journals, and I apologize. Things have been rough for the past few weeks, but I'm back, and I also intend to go through and read all the back entries on my Friends page ( Read more... )

I need to stop this. Stop seeing my life in so many other things. Relating things in my life to things I see on tv or in the movies. I know its all part of the borderline, relating too much to all these fake situations because I'm not sure of myself, convincing myself that all this is just like my life,....I will never watch The Truth About Cats ( Read more... )

I'm a terrible person. How hard is it to say I love you in return to the one person who has told you they love you unconditionally. Stupid Lauren, way to drive people away. And THIS is why I don't have parents and no one even remotely close to family will speak to me.