so it's been quite a long time since i last posted in this stupid thing, probably because my emotions have been so messed up & i've not been able to comprehend how i'm feeling. after reading through almost all of my previous post i've realized i need to quit worrying about my damn past so much, that i need to just focus more on my future. i need to ( Read more... )

so tomorrow starts my diet for real, whether or not i stick to it who knows really...i am determined to stick to it no matter what. i just feel like as of lately i have so many things i need to adjust in my life. i'm working on getting rid of all this negativitiy i have build up and to just continue living in the moment & enjoying my life with the ( Read more... )

"never knew love would hurt this fucking bad, the worst pain that I ever had."

WHY MUST YOU ALWAYS RAIN ON MY PARADE FOR? please tell me.

it's been exactly 14 months since we broke up and your face just never seems to leave my mind. it's like your face is sketched in the back of my mind forever. i've become a pro at making people think i'm happy, i ( Read more... )

i'd like to wish my mamaw a happy birthday, i'd give anything to have you here so we could all celebrate it together. but we all know your in a much better place. there's not a day or night that goes by that i don't think about you & all the memories we shared together. i know your looking down on me and taking care of me. i miss and love you with ( Read more... )

sadly i don't what's become of me or how i'm feeling; inside i'm an emotional wreck but outside i seem to be perfectly fine or so that's what everyone else seems to think. i don't know if it's because of the fact that i've put myself out there & i've gotten involved on that level with someone who isn't you or what. deep down in my heart i know i'll ( Read more... )

the end of the year is approaching and i always seem to post how my year has went all together ( Read more... )

tonight has just been one of those nights, when it feels like weight of the world is on my shoulders & my mind is in overdrive when i should be sleeping:

i'm just gonna bitch and rant until i feel it necesary to stop.

when i think about you, it makes me want to continously over & over stab you in the face. i want to tell you to wake the fuck up and ( Read more... )

this feeling is all too new to me and i don't even know what to do with myself, all i can do is breathe & smile. i'm not getting too excited because you never know when something will crash and burn right up in your face just like that. but all i can say is, i guess we'll wait & see what comes from this; hopefully it's something beautiful. awe is ( Read more... )

i'm my own best friend and i'm the one who reassures myself that everything is going to be alright, even when at times it doesn't really feel that way. i'm stronger now than i ever have been and honestly i couldn't be more happier. i've lost a lot along the way and i've lost who i used to be too but i'm on my way back to self discovery. i'm finding ( Read more... )

I finally feel as if I can breath, for the first time in a long time.
It really feels nice, for once I feel like I can completely rely on myself; not someone else.
I'm proving you all wrong, proving that I can make it & that I CAN be happy with or without you.