Shit, I haven't updated in forever and there really is a lot for me to say. But, instead I really don't want to say anything. I will just state the most recent thing and/or things that have happened in the past five hours and then continue updating from there ( Read more... )

Isn't weird how one day your life is totally predictable and the next day its full of surprise and happy things?!me and sean are back together, me and sean are back together, me and sean are back together!!!!!So so so happy, so happy that i start saying things 3 times in a row!!SIU is a new experience and my plan was to not talk to anyone so i ( Read more... )

im watchin penguin calls on albino black sheep and in the back round the discovery channel a special on the da vinci code, weird combination, well maybe. restless right now and its a saturday night and im at home doing nothing updating my journal, what a life. oh well what can ya do

well first things first, my uncle kris came home to our house today ,just kind out of nowhere, he lives in Montana for fucks sake! am i the only person that finds this completely odd? i suppose so because its my moms youngest brother and she was to say the least happy. today was erins 20th b-day thats also odd , shes not in her "teens" anymore, ( Read more... )

so all week i have been so so so worried about getting into siu and then bam today im in like flint.my room mates name is jasmin and this is going to be so so great. yippee!!!!

3 cups of soda for friends $3.50

2 packs of ciggerettes sharing with friends $4.00

being ignored by two of your best friends priceless

Last night was tims b-day it was a pretty good time lots of laughs and drinks. I have been helping my dad paint the fence this week not that much fun but it needs to be done. really really hot outside lately . im so discombobulated here lately can't make up my mind on what to do with anything.i think my mission in life is to make other peoples ( Read more... )

i just slept 8 whole hours. i am thrilled. this is my first night home in the past 4 days. its good to get away from the place you love so much. i've been so amused and distracted by everything around me that i dont lay on the floor in my bathroom and cry until my eyes burn, so hey things are looking up. nick has been really great. lately i've been ( Read more... )

my best friends right now are my boyfriend sean that i talk to once a week if im lucky, my cat lil kim and a book. i feel alone and i just wish that sean would call. but absence makes the heart grown fonder or so they say. i say that i have never been so fond of any man ever in my life like i love sean but i guess life is shaking the index finger ( Read more... )

Reality is harsh and sometimes even cruel. But most of all its truth to the madness of life. I don't know what the next molment will hold for me anymore. I am truely hanging by a thread. I feel weak and all my walls are down and people are walking all over me. I want to wake up and everything will be as it was, back to neverland of perfect love. ( Read more... )