I haven't posted in here and in a long time with good reason. TIme hasn't been especially good to me up here at CMU, granted my classes are going well and this year I can study without a problem but things this year just seem to be slower and a little tougher than last year in the friends department. Maybe its just me but in reality I think it ( Read more... )

Its been quite a long time since I up dated this thing, where to start ( Read more... )

So the last month has been long, tiring and tough, but good in a way. I broke up with my g/f erica, mostly because of a certain problem with distance and I hate that factor that I have been away from her longer than together. I don't think Im ready either for another long relationship, I think I have a good amount of traveling and growing up to do ( Read more... )

So I wasn't looking for love, not at all

But love found me again

Weird in a way

But I've never been happier

New life, new love, new experience

~ Dan

Fucking terrible night

Had a relatively sad, sobering night, not emo, just sad. Its weird, I keep walking through life, with people passing me by; friends, roomates, higher ups in my life. And I am alone, and nothing more ( Read more... )

Its almost easter, almost, less than 2 weeks away. I gave up relationship / dating / sex / anything that really had to do with opposite sex even leading up to anything. Going out for coffee and stuff was fine, but nothing even relatively close to intimate. And now that I stopped getting upset and tired and heartbroken, I stared piecing things back ( Read more... )

Lately I have had these really weird ass dreams, and Im trying to make sense out of all of them, I think part of it was stress or lack of sleep, but a lot of them concern steph, but not all which is really weird. So I am going to write them al down so I don't forget any of them anymore ( Read more... )

33 days to go, and thank god. I need to get the hell out of here and fast, this place is driving me insane and starting to play tricks with my mind. Im going to be happy to get the hell away, So I don't have to deal with any of this emotional bullshit anylonger that my heart keeps putting out. Just sucks that my heart is always at war with itself ( Read more... )

Im going to be so happy to leave at the end of the semester, and leave the pain behind. Beautiful in a way, exhilirating, and utterly exhaustive in its most quentissential form, release without realization. Tradgedy without end, and sin without gratification, a lurridly macabre display of descention into the unknown and the abyss from whence it ( Read more... )