I can't believe I still have this thing ( Read more... )

why can't i ever make things easier on myself? rob wants to get back together... so what do i do? i start talking to an unemployed, license-less, virgin who i actually kind of like. where do i go from here? i couldnt possibly make myself any more confused.

i check my e-mail everyday, hoping that rob sent me something.

i really do love rob. however, we always knew that we werent going to get married. we want different things out of life. i want to work hard, and make money, and buy a house. he is completely content just staying where he is. i want kids. he doesnt. i like to go out and be social. he doesnt. all in all, we werent meant to be together. i feel like ( Read more... )

i really love rob. but im beginning to wonder if love is enough. we have been dating for 2 years, and i always said i wouldnt marry rob. so what the fuck am i doing? i guess i just keep waiting for him to change. and we all know that isnt going to happen. so now what?

the #tweetyour16yearoldself thing on twitter got me thinking. i have always been a dreamer, yet i have always been absurdly realistic. when i was younger, i knew exactly what my life would pan out to be. i would go to either community college or a trade school. do ok for myself. i always knew where i stood. in the middle. always in the middle. im ( Read more... )

rob confronted me earlier tonight about me ignoring him. more specifically, he feels like i dont pay attention all the time when he is talking to me. i guess he was saying something to me, and i completely interrupted him and started talking to my roommate about the febreeze air freshener that i had bought ( Read more... )

i have always felt guilty that i dont have a better relationship with my grandparents. not that i never talk to/see them. its just that i have never really made an attempt to connect with them outside of family get-togethers. they are truly amazing people, and i am sure they have stories upon stories that i would love to hear. now my grandma has ( Read more... )

do you ever wake up in the morning, and you just know that while you can't remember all of last nights events, you know that you made all the wrong decisions?

that was me this morning.

i think im done drinking for a while.

so, last night i summoned my up courage, (or it could have been the bottle and a half of wine i drank)and i told rob that i love him. while i am happy that i said it and that he said it back, i am pissed at myself that i did it drunk. i cant even fully remember the conversation. whoops...
oh well
its done now
and we are in love
haha